My Happy Ending -Avril Lavigne

"Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead
Was it something I did? Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging in a city so dead, held up so high by such a breakable thread.
You were everything I thought I knew and I thought we could be
-You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of our memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
-You've got your dumb friends, I know what they say.
They tell you I'm difficult but so are they.
But they don't know me, do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the **** that you do
You were everything I thought I knew and I thought we could be
-You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of our memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
-It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care and making me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done"
I like this song, it has good kick backs and it helped a lot in my life when someone treated me like I was the only one. Needless to say I wasn't. But also, he wasn't everything that I wanted. So I'm all the better for it ;)

40 days and 40 nights

I have 40 days of writing ahead of me. I have set out on a task to write while T is gone every single day. They will be presented to him on his birthday. It seems daunting but I am excited none the less!
Music to encourage my hand not to cramp and for my thoughts to flow? Sure, why not!
I've had this song stuck in my head for atleast a week if not more
I Never Told You -Colbie Calliat (Sad thing is that most of these lyrics will be coming from off the top of my head since they've been floating around in there)
"I miss those blue eyes, how you kissed me at night, I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile, I miss the way we breathe
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
-I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see where I belong to when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

That Time of Year

It was that time of year again guys! Taking care of little girls, smiling, laughing, acting CRAZY! That pretty much sums up Girl Scout Camp. The girls always amaze me :) I was feeling a little sick so I put on my girl scout smile and went to hang out in my tent. Low and behold I had a little girl who turned down all other offers to do fun stuff so that she could hang out with me. Anyone else see something wrong with this??? Cards, fun stuff: 'No.' Sick feeling older girl: 'Heck yes! sounds fun' Hm. Anyways I love her to death :) <3
Also my other little friend who I met the very first day and LOVED. She is just precious and caring and patient. I see a bright future for her in life. Camp always reminds me of the potential our children have. *Sigh*
Also nice, we woke up earlllyyy in the morning (or late in the night, depends on how you look at it :P) and 5 older girls hiked up to a local landmark. Camp is on a mountainous state park. We hiked to an old structure that sits on the ridge of the mountain and overlooks the city. We went up there and watched the morning sunrise. It was beautiful! The lights of the city before the sun rose were really cool too. Today has been enlightening and encouraging. It made me glad to be alive.
Also, it made me glad to be alive because I almost drown in the lake yesterday... So yeah... I lived! Yay!!!

Two for the Price of One

So I go to fye (local music store for anyone who doesn't know) because I have $2 on a gift card. I browse around and then find a Relient K CD for $4. I was pretty impressed with that since there were 26 songs on the CD. Upon arrival in the car I pop it in. I like looking at the little books albums come with so I start to search for it. I find it and pull it out but there's still something in the case. It's one of the paper cases with the little cubby slots if you're wondering. I shake it and out comes a printed but unnamed CD. It doesn't look like Relient K though. I pop it in and recognize the songs. It is confirmed to be a Sublime CD. So I will peruse it since it has so craftily been given to me. Not bad to get two CDs for $1.88!

Where's a cat?

Finally changed the profile name. If you guys are curious it's my first initial and what my little girl scout friends call me because of my middle name. I like it better. It's more fitting since I have ohhh a MILLION nicknames. Hope it doesn't freak anyone out :)

Some Kind of Wonderful

I feel like rolling down a hill or jumping in some mud. The most nervewracking test I have ever had to take is DONE. *Sigh of relief!* In honor of that wonderful notion a song :)
Some Kind of Wonderful by Grand Funk Railroad
This song came to mind today when I heard it on the radio and it felt right to post. So, here it is. Maybe it'll mean something to you guys too!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTuIXtXUEw4

Cicada Zombie Apocalypse O.o

So, kittens at the place I volunteer were playing with a dead cicada. So when I find another dead cicada I thought I would give it to them. I pick it up to find that it has no head and is being devoured by ants. I think to myself 'Okay, just shake off the ants and let the kittens play with it' So that's what I intend to do. Then I notice it's legs twitching. 'Okay, I've heard of stuff like that before. No big deal. After all it doesn't even have a HEAD' I get inside to the kittens and lay it down for them. It starts full out kicking. 'Okay, not normal' I go to pick it up and the thing starts flapping it's wings and clicking and acting like  a real live cicada. BUT IT HAS NO HEAD! So my logical brain is telling me 'If it looks like a live cicada, moves like a live cicada and sounds like a live cicada its probably alive!' So I'm observing it struggle wondering what to do to it when it stings/stabs me with the sharp end of it's butt! At this point I decided that I would not let a zombie cicada patronize me. (Especially since I'm allergic to stinging bugs and I don't know what just happened!) I put it out of it's misery.  Crazy thing!
But yeah if you're a tl;dr kind of person THE CICADA ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE EXISTS!