My Happy Ending -Avril Lavigne

"Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead
Was it something I did? Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging in a city so dead, held up so high by such a breakable thread.
You were everything I thought I knew and I thought we could be
-You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of our memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
-You've got your dumb friends, I know what they say.
They tell you I'm difficult but so are they.
But they don't know me, do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the **** that you do
You were everything I thought I knew and I thought we could be
-You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of our memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
-It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care and making me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done"
I like this song, it has good kick backs and it helped a lot in my life when someone treated me like I was the only one. Needless to say I wasn't. But also, he wasn't everything that I wanted. So I'm all the better for it ;)

40 days and 40 nights

I have 40 days of writing ahead of me. I have set out on a task to write while T is gone every single day. They will be presented to him on his birthday. It seems daunting but I am excited none the less!
Music to encourage my hand not to cramp and for my thoughts to flow? Sure, why not!
I've had this song stuck in my head for atleast a week if not more
I Never Told You -Colbie Calliat (Sad thing is that most of these lyrics will be coming from off the top of my head since they've been floating around in there)
"I miss those blue eyes, how you kissed me at night, I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile, I miss the way we breathe
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
-I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see where I belong to when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

That Time of Year

It was that time of year again guys! Taking care of little girls, smiling, laughing, acting CRAZY! That pretty much sums up Girl Scout Camp. The girls always amaze me :) I was feeling a little sick so I put on my girl scout smile and went to hang out in my tent. Low and behold I had a little girl who turned down all other offers to do fun stuff so that she could hang out with me. Anyone else see something wrong with this??? Cards, fun stuff: 'No.' Sick feeling older girl: 'Heck yes! sounds fun' Hm. Anyways I love her to death :) <3
Also my other little friend who I met the very first day and LOVED. She is just precious and caring and patient. I see a bright future for her in life. Camp always reminds me of the potential our children have. *Sigh*
Also nice, we woke up earlllyyy in the morning (or late in the night, depends on how you look at it :P) and 5 older girls hiked up to a local landmark. Camp is on a mountainous state park. We hiked to an old structure that sits on the ridge of the mountain and overlooks the city. We went up there and watched the morning sunrise. It was beautiful! The lights of the city before the sun rose were really cool too. Today has been enlightening and encouraging. It made me glad to be alive.
Also, it made me glad to be alive because I almost drown in the lake yesterday... So yeah... I lived! Yay!!!

Two for the Price of One

So I go to fye (local music store for anyone who doesn't know) because I have $2 on a gift card. I browse around and then find a Relient K CD for $4. I was pretty impressed with that since there were 26 songs on the CD. Upon arrival in the car I pop it in. I like looking at the little books albums come with so I start to search for it. I find it and pull it out but there's still something in the case. It's one of the paper cases with the little cubby slots if you're wondering. I shake it and out comes a printed but unnamed CD. It doesn't look like Relient K though. I pop it in and recognize the songs. It is confirmed to be a Sublime CD. So I will peruse it since it has so craftily been given to me. Not bad to get two CDs for $1.88!

Where's a cat?

Finally changed the profile name. If you guys are curious it's my first initial and what my little girl scout friends call me because of my middle name. I like it better. It's more fitting since I have ohhh a MILLION nicknames. Hope it doesn't freak anyone out :)

Some Kind of Wonderful

I feel like rolling down a hill or jumping in some mud. The most nervewracking test I have ever had to take is DONE. *Sigh of relief!* In honor of that wonderful notion a song :)
Some Kind of Wonderful by Grand Funk Railroad
This song came to mind today when I heard it on the radio and it felt right to post. So, here it is. Maybe it'll mean something to you guys too!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTuIXtXUEw4

Cicada Zombie Apocalypse O.o

So, kittens at the place I volunteer were playing with a dead cicada. So when I find another dead cicada I thought I would give it to them. I pick it up to find that it has no head and is being devoured by ants. I think to myself 'Okay, just shake off the ants and let the kittens play with it' So that's what I intend to do. Then I notice it's legs twitching. 'Okay, I've heard of stuff like that before. No big deal. After all it doesn't even have a HEAD' I get inside to the kittens and lay it down for them. It starts full out kicking. 'Okay, not normal' I go to pick it up and the thing starts flapping it's wings and clicking and acting like  a real live cicada. BUT IT HAS NO HEAD! So my logical brain is telling me 'If it looks like a live cicada, moves like a live cicada and sounds like a live cicada its probably alive!' So I'm observing it struggle wondering what to do to it when it stings/stabs me with the sharp end of it's butt! At this point I decided that I would not let a zombie cicada patronize me. (Especially since I'm allergic to stinging bugs and I don't know what just happened!) I put it out of it's misery.  Crazy thing!
But yeah if you're a tl;dr kind of person THE CICADA ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE EXISTS!

Don't You Know You're Beautiful -Seabird

I think T might agree with this :P If he would ever get on here!! Sigh. I like the song it's sad but well made.

Don't you remember
You were happy when you were younger
Things were so simple yeah
'Til the day you walked out on your mother
But now you blame yourself Because you're by yourself
You feel like it's not gonna to change
You're crying on the floor cause you can take no more
Looking for a way to escape
-And all this time saying you were fine
And everyone still to blame
Well there you are
You and your broken heart
It's written all over your face
-Don't you know
Don't you know that you're beautiful yeah
-I see you laughing But I know inside that you're crying
Just tell me what happened when things went wrong
We'll try to make sense of it all
Please don't blame yourself Cause you're not by yourself
I've been right here all along
Don't have to be alone Because you've always know
Wherever your heart is my home
-And all this time
Saying you were fine And everyone still to blame
Well there you are
You and your broken heart
It's written all over you're face
-Don't you know don't you know that you're beautiful
-Can't you see what you mean to me

Days Go On -Greg Laswell

Pandora brought this song up for me. I like it a lot.
"All I know is that my days go on and on
Without you here"

Traveling through Life

Today, has been difficult. I found a song on a blog I like that has made it a little better though. I don't want to post it for the fact that I found it on another blog but it's by a band called Passenger. I like it a lot. It's made my headache bearable. As everyone scoffs at me listening to music while having a headache. I'm sorry guys! I'm vulnerable to a good song!
Title is a nod to the band name and also to the fact that I'm somehow still moving on this journey.

Remind Me -Brad Paisley

This song has Carrie Underwood in it as well and I love the combination :)
The song is sweet
"Now we keep saying that we're okay
But I don't want to settle for good, not great
I miss the way it felt back then
I want to feel that way again
-Been so long, bet you orget
the way I used to kiss your neck
Remind me, Remind me
-So on fire, so in love
way back when we couldn't get enough
Remind me, Remind me"

Stand By Me -Ben E. King

This song is really good and I've heard it sung by many artists. I love covers of it featuring soprano girl voices. This song can really show case an artist's ability. Look up a version that suits you :)
I have a name idea but I'm not changing it yet. Just if you were wondering...

Musings

I'm considering changing my profile name. I know that it is a little out there. Also, the friend who deemed it my title for the rest of my life (Okay, she may not have been that harsh about it :P) Has drifted away from me and I don't feel as closely bound to the name as I used to. So, if you guys read this and find it posted by a different profile name DO NOT BE ALARMED. Even though no one but me probably cares :P I'm on the hunt for a more fitting one. I will be considering it, hopefully next time I will have a good idea! Ideas are excepted, if indeed someone else does care :P

Breakfast at Tiffany's -Dark Blue Something

I like this song but I never knew the name before. But alas! Pandora has revealed it to me. I love this song. Look it up :)
'And I said "What about Breakfast at Tiffany's?"'

You Know Where To Find Me -Matthew West

"It's like you're drowning right in front of me"
That sums up how I felt last night. I couldn't stop it. I like this song. It has a good beat and meaning. Matthew West is good. Future posts of his will be sure to come. 

Up and Up -Relient K

"Yesterday was not quite what it could have been
As were most of all the days before.But I swear today with every breath I'm breathing in
I'll be trying to make it so much more"
"Cause I'm just trying to be a better version of me for you."
-Sorry about yesterday, T. I'll make it better.

Be My Escape -Relient K

This song and band are wonderful. I love the acoustic and the normal equally, and that usually doesn't happen! So whatever you like better, go look up. I hope you guys will like it!!
"Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity. And I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key. And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me."

She's Got a Boyfriend Now -Boys Like Girls

Lyrics for you guys, because I think everything will be alright but who knows, I could be wrong.
We were 17 and invincible
Had the world figured out
And the girl on my shoulder told me
"Everything's gonna be alright"And everything was gonna be alright
Yeah maybe we were in highschool
But you never see the ending
When you're young in love pretending singin'
Everything's gonna be alright And everything was gonna be alright (whoah-oh)
-Buried her deep inside
Stars stuck in my eyes
-And now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rockband
Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned
Yeah, she's in Ohio
And I'm on some back road
Driving to the city and then who knows
Guess that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
-Then I took a trip out to L.A
For the girl with a smile
That could take your breath away, I'm thinkin'
Everything's gonna be alright And everything was gonna be alright
Maybe I thought I could sweep in And sweep her off her feet and go right back to Boston
Thinkin' everything's gon' be alright And everything was gonna be alright
-The streets keep rolling on
But now she's so far gone
-And now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rockband
Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned
Yeah, she's on the west coast
And I'm on some back road
Driving to the city and then who knows
Guess that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
-Take me back to you somehow,
With everything that I know now
It's so hard, I tore us apart
Take me back to feeling like the world
Would just keep dealing me the right cards,
Now you're just so far
-And I'm 23 and and invincible
Got the world figured out
And the bird on my shoulder told me
"Everything's gonna be alright"
But is everything gonna be alright?-And now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rockband
Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned
Yeah, she's in Ohio
And I'm on some back road
Driving to the city and then who knows
Guess that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
-I wish that I could turn this car around
'cause there she goes
I wish that I could press rewind somehow
'cause she's got a boyfriend now

Jumper -Third Blind Eye

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.
-The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight,
You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, on a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,
Well everyone I know has got a reason,
to say, put the past away,
-I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again,
I would understand,
I would understand.
And well he's on the table,
and he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left you,
You've been dismissed.
I never thought it would come to this,
and I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today, We can put the past away,
-I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again,
I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...
-Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,

You're So Last Summer -Taking Back Sunday

My Pandora has produced more for you guys. This song is interesting because I can't imagine saying this to a boy. But apparently someone said it to him! No youtube again *sigghhhh*

"She said 'Don't
Don't let it get to your head
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.'
She said 'You're a touch overrated.
You're a lush and I hate it'"

Selling, Studying, Songs and more

So I've been busy with all assortments of studying lately. But I do have a few songs I want to post. Also I had been busy with my first ever booth sale! *Yayyyy* I made more than I hoped to and I enjoyed my time selling. My boyfriend's mom even stopped by to pick up something :P Wasn't expecting that for sure!
So here's a dilemma: When doing a project with someone from the complete opposite end of the learning caste system should you A) Do all the work because you know the product will be better that way and then say they did some or B) Say they didn't do any, but you kinda didn't let them? I don't know I haven't decided I've done most of the work and I can't say he tried to help much but I'm not sure I would have wanted him too.

And now music :) Still love-hating Pandora :P
But it got me this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NMTvmDTO1pk
This being Dark Blue, by Jack's Mannequin. I like it it sounds cool.

Also, just as a bonus because I dug out my CD last night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_QlhFfVtxU
One of the Boys, by Katy Perry.