Whisper -Evanescene

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7I5CWyzTBGU&feature=related
Just found this song. Sounds good, but that's nothing new considering it's Eveanescene! Favorite quote: "I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away." I could use a mind set like that! Hope you like it!

Cliched

Cliched may be a good word to describe me, but only to those who don't see past the surface. Yes, I may have cats. Yes, I may knit. But that does not mean that I am old. Maybe I push myself too hard. Maybe I give up too easy. Maybe I spend no time at home. Maybe I sit at school for a long time after it's over. Maybe that's because I don't have a stay at home mom and I don't have a rich family and I hold myself to a standard that will get me into college. Because that's what I have to do. I don't know if going out to parties that you don't actually have fun at and can't even remember is what you like. Even if it is I'm not going to stare at you and send you free samples of my attitude. I'm going to accept that and move on because I don't really know you. All you know is what you've heard from others. As far as your history with me: You've never been here just listening. So please save us all the embarrassment. Learn up on the subject a little before you start drama and listen sometimes too. Everyone reading this: Thank you so much for listening. It means the world to me :) <3

The Last Night -Skillet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jP0Ne9aW7UI&feature=g-vrec&context=G2c0ad00RVAAAAAAAAAA
I can't just post lyrics for this one because I like the whole song. The meaning is really sweet and the song is quite enjoyable. Listen to it for yourselves. First time hearing it today and I already love it :)

Tied Together with a Smile -Taylor Swift

Love this song for the words she put into it. It's early Taylor Swift. If you don't like new Taylor Swift and you can deal with some country this may be a good song for you.
"Hold on, baby you're losing it. The water's high you're jumping into it and letting go. And no one knows..."

Safe and Sound -Taylor Swift COVERED by TeraBrite

I'm a pretty big Taylor Swift fan and I love the song Safe and Sound. So now you're wondering who TeraBrite is. Well may I tell you that TeraBrite is an amazing little group that makes amazing covers to amazing songs. Crazy right? The girl who sings has a lot of skill and I would appreciate it if you guys would do some "Just listening" for her sometime soon. I bet you'll be just as impressed as I was.
P.S. not only did they cover this song, but they covered it and changed it into a punk song. This group knows how to win my heart :)

High School Never Ends -Bowling for Soup

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OsjBYxrR0c&feature=related
Super Language alert! :P
Lets hope notttt. But a good song :)

Breathing -Yellowcard

One of my favorite Yellowcard songs :) Good instrumental, a little hard rock-y. What's not to like?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GCNnnZ84UB8
"How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done? I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run."

Teenagers -My Chemical Romance

Language alert!
"They're gonna clean up your looks with all the lies in the books to make a citizen out of you. Because they sleep with a gun, and keep an eye on you son, so they can watch all the things you do. Because the drugs never work, they're gonna give you a smirk. Because they've got methods of keeping you clean."
"The boys and girls in the clique. The awful names that they stick. You're never gonna fit in much here kid."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=updoMIHMBbU&feature=related

Dancing with tears in my eyes -Ke$ha

Loved this song for a while. Sad but good :) *This* is my confessional
Here we go, welcome to my funeral. Without you, I don't even have a pulse. All alone, it's dark and cold. With every move I die. Here I go, this is my confessional. A lost cause, nobody can save my soul. I'm so delusional. With every move I die. I have destroyed our love; it's gone. Payback is sick; it's all my fault. I'm dancing with tears in my eyes. Just fighting to get through the night Im losing it. With every move I die. Im faded, Im broken inside. Ive wasted the love of my life. I'm losing it. With every move I die. When did I become such a hypocrit? Double life; lies that you caught me in. Trust me I'm paying for it. With every move I die. On the floor Im just a zombie who I am is not who I wanna be. Im such a tragedy. With every move I die. I have destroyed our love; it's gone. Payback is sick; its all my fault. I'm dancing with tears in my eyes.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_a8xCZMp7Y

Cats vs. Boys

Two things that most people don't see as anything alike.  But I do :) Cats like snuggling. So do boys. Cats want attention. So do boys. One of my cats is kissy. So is my boy :P I love cats. I love that boy. One good thing about biys though, they don't have claws ;)

Cooling down

I don't know if anyone one reading this is still in close contact with their parents, but I am. Right now this unfortunate considering I hate 1/2 of them. So here I retire to the sanctuary of my blog and let myself soak in the fat that you guys take time to read this and might actually care about me. So thank you for giving me some readers to talk to and a safe place to hide. I need it. Keep listening :)

Black Parade -My Chemical Romance

One of my favorite songs for the good accompaniments and mood-swingy attitude. Always been a favorite of mine and probably always will be :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-q9q6zl3WIs
"Because one day I'll leave you, a phantom, to guide you in the summer, to join the black parade."
"Even though you're dead and gone, believe me, your memory will carry on"
"Do or die, you'll never make me. Go and try, you'll never break me. We want it all, we wanna play this part. I won't explain. Or say I'm sorry. I'm unashamed. I'll show my scar. Give a cheer, for all the broken. Listen here because it's who we are. I'm just a man. I'm not a hero. I'm just a boy who had to sing this song."

Jane Eyre Quote 2

"I believed he was naturally a man of better tendencies, higher principles, and purer tastes than such as circumstances had developed, education instilled, or destiny encouraged. I thought there were excellent materials in him; though for the present they hung together somewhat spoiled and tangled. I cannot deny that I grieved for his grief, whatever that was, and would have given much to assuage it."

Times change

Three years ago I lost an earring and thought it was the worst thing in the world. Maybe I've grown up too fast because now I think there are four main things in this world: The sun, the Earth, space and the darkness that will befall us when we run out of one of the first three. Some have told me that's grim. But isn't it true? Can they tell me that we'll be ok if we run out of sunlight? Can they tell me we'll all be ok if we have no Earth and no other space to flee to? Maybe I grew up too fast and they just haven't caught up yet. I believe it and I hope for everyone's sake that it never happens.

Jane Eyre

"People will instictively find out, as I have done, that it is not your forte to tell of yourself, but to listen while others talk of themselves; they will feel, too, that you listen with no malevolent scorn of their indiscretion, but with a kind of innate sympathy; not the less comforting and encouraging because it is very unobtrusive in its manifestations."

Tonight will be the night

In a song I love (Fall for you by Secondhand Serenade) it says "Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you". He's speaking of love. I'm speaking of the end of a rebellion and an empire. Tonight is the night that I will either fall or rise up because of you.  I have came to the conclusion that I can't avoid this. Even if I could I'm not sure it would be the right move. I've waited for this all to happen, but for it all to happen in one night is a little overwhelming. I could wait a lifetime for us to come to terms but it would help no one. I don't want your apoligies or your pain. I just want mutual happiness between everyone. I know it's not a hard goal, but it's been fleeting lately. Maybe "tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again, don't make me change my mind. I will live to see another day, I swear it's true."

Mr. Brightside -Killers

I love the song for this little set of lyrics because they're what I think of lately and its all in my head. Enjoy, it's a great song as long as you can come to terms with the topic. I personally don't mind and I hope you don't either :P

Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go
And I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

Can you taste the... what is that???

I just don't understand it. I find a lot of similarities with a girl from a complete different social group than mine. I understand how she feels. I see how she looks like she wishes anyone would pay her some attention. Just have someone count her as part of the group. I liked her for it. Then out of nowhere today she turns on me. I can't get a grip on it. What possesses a person to act like that? It's like there are two different people living inside of her. I wish she had only let me see the sweet half of her. The other half leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
Speaking of bad tastes, I got a good one (in a bad way) today. Someone, yep you, tried to make the previous bad taste come out of my mouth and I (I'm not proud of this) licked his fingers so he would stop putting them near my face. Well, his fingers are not tasty! Imagine licking .... a bird's salt lick. It was gross :P But totally worth it for making him smile once I wrinkled up my nose and stuck out my tongue because of the taste. So... this bad taste was a little bitter sweet :) Mainly sweet just because of him. Anybody else feeling the love? Hmmmm?

Man-made

Watching the sunrise really makes me smile. Mainly it's because that's something that people cant do. It's pure nature at work. People could try to recreate it but it wouldn't be the same.  Nature can be so beautiful and most people just take that for granted because they think that people can do everything that nature can, and better. But that's a lie. If everything was subject to human munipulation, we could never see something genuinely beautiful again without undermining it's beauty because of the fact that it was made. Not everything is meant to be made by man. We have to accept that there are things that are natural that can please us without any tweaking. We don't always have to try for bigger and better. We're doing just fine watching the sunrise in the morning. Because it just happens, kinda like life :)

The Notebook

"I want all of you. Forever. You and me. Everyday."

I Don't Believe You -Pink

I don't mind it
I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set and I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight, the times I've cried, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?
-No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No, I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend
To not love me at all
-I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams when you can't wake up
Looks like you've given up, you've had enough
But I want more no I won't stop
'cause I just know you'll come around... right?
-Just don't stand there and watch me fall
'cause I, 'cause I still don't mind at all
It's like the way we fight, the times I cry, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?
-I don't believe you

Ave Mary A -Pink

Motorcycle's in the parking lot
Revving their engines and it just wont stop
Matches the noise screaming in my head
Houston I think we got a problem
-Where does everybody go when they go
The go so fast I don't think they know
We hate so fast
And we love too slow
London I think we got a problem
-And when I think about it
I just can't think about it
I try to drink about it
I keep spinning
-Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me
-Child be still
Child be still
-Broken hearts all around the spot
I can't help thinking that we lost the plot
Suicide bomber and a student shot
Tokyo I think we got a problem
-But for that they have gotta pill
If that don't kill you then the side effects will
If we don't kill each other then the side effects will
Cape Town I think we got a problem
-Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me
-Child be still
-If the darkest hour comes
Before the light
Where is the light
Where is the light
-If the darkest hour comes
Before the light
Where is the light
Where is the light
Where is the light, yeah
-Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me
-Child be still
Child be still
Child be still

Saving Grace

How do you save someone who can't save their self? When you know it isn't what they need, and they know it isn't what they need, but neither of you can stop it. I want to help so bad, but it isn't my own problem and I can't get in his head to help kill the urge. I wish I could but its no use. I'm always jumpy now when he has a guilty face. I look at it and wonder if he broke down, but I'm hoping he didnt. I wish I could be with him all the time so he never had to rely on his own faulty judgement. The fact that I can't is something I can't change and I have to accept that. I hope he finds the love for himself in his heart that helps him beat this without feeling every step away as a rip from his mind.
If you read this, I'm sorry but I can't talk to you about yourself like this. I hope reading this encourages you to try harder and doesn't make you sad. I want you to get better for your own sake. <3

Somewhat International?

So here I was just looking through my cool blogger features when I find a button called stats. Being a math-y person I want to see what it is, so I click on it. There I find that not only have some of my friends checked it out, but that people from other countries had too! It amazed me honestly. I always thought all my views were coming from me coming on here all the time, but I have 156 views total so far (in less than a month!) and only 93 are from my country. So there are at least a few people out there who have visited my page 63 times! I'm really excited about that. I never actually thought anyone would find me. I hope all of my non North American readers enjoy listening and do it as much as possible just like I try to. And hopefully you guys keep listening to me as well ;)
-Encouraged and Amazed,
 Candra-corn

Just the way you are -Bruno Mars

You put this in a note once :) This is what I was thinking.
Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
-Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say
-When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)
-Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
-Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say
-When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are
-When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah

Move Along -AAR

"So a day when you lose yourself completely could be the night when your life ends."
"When all you gotta keep is strong move along."

Stained

My words mean so much more when ink is blending in.
The ink puts new emphasis on my skin and on my meaning.
The words last longer and look so much prettier.
Making me stronger and making me remember you.
The ink only stays for the few.

Reflecting

The reflection in your eyes makes me see all of myself in your view.
It is not the same as mine,
You like all you see.
My eyes, my face, my personality.
Each slice of me.
Each slice I might dispute,
but not when I'm with you.
You make me know what I show.
Give me a reason to love every slice.

Sweet Sixteen -Hilary Duff

L, this seems like a song we could jam to together :P It's just too hippy hoppy for anyone else. Just the blondes :)
"Today, I'm gonna run away and feel the sun throughout my hair, Finally free to be who I wanna be. Who that is, I dont really care. Cuz I've got friends who love me. Blue skies are above me. My blonde hair is everywhere. Sweet Sixteen."

I admit I had a Hilary Duff thing going on when I was little, but who didn't? :P

Summer Girls -LFO; Summerboy -Lady Gaga

"Something in your eyes really drove me crazy. Now I can't forget you and it makes me mad. Left one day and never came back. Stayed all summer then went back home."
"When I met you said my name was Rich. You looked like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch. New Kids on the Block had a bunch of hits. Chinese food makes me sick. And I think its fly when girls stop by for the summer. I like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch. I'd take her if I had one wish, but she's been gone since that summer."

Had it on CD growing up. I loved it because I listened to it... and then got sick at a Chinese restaurant :P My bestfriend's been gone since that summer. She looks like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch.

In spirit of her: Our favorite song
"Nowhere, yeah, we're going nowhere fast. Maybe this time I'll be yours you'll be mine. Crazy, get your *butt* in my bed. Baby, you'll be just my summer boyfriend. Summerboy. Lets get lost, you can take me home. Somewhere nice we can be alone. Bikini tops coming off. Dont be sad when the sun goes down, you'll wake up and I'm not around. We still have the summer after all. Sometimes you might start a fight but I'm happy pretending we're alright. Sunglasses cover up my green eyes. My martini glistens, yeah, while checking out other guys. Summerboy."
"Hey there Summerboy, lets go for a drive. Take me for a ride. Never gonna close our eyes. Hey there Summerboy, Im a busy girl. Ain't got too much time, hurry up before I change my mind. Hey there Summerboy, I'm taking off my heels. let's go for a ru-un. Have a little summer fu-u-un."

Straightjacket feeling -All American Rejects

"You're the problem and you cant feel. Try this on, straightjacket feeling. So maybe I wont be alone. Take back now my life you're stealing. Yesterday was hell, but today I'm fine without you. Run away this time without you. And all I thought you'd be, that face is staring holes in me again.
Trust you is just one defense. With a list of others, you dont make sense. Beg me time and time again to take you back now but you can't win. Talk back now my life you're stealing."

I like this song because I wish I could sing it to someone and make them understand that maybe they had me yesterday but now they have her and I'm fine without him. Sorry N, but you can only play me once before I catch on.

Take note preps

As I'm sitting in McDonalds drinking my hot chocolate I'm thinking about all my snobby counterparts. There are different levels of likeablity to a fast food hot chocolate. Theres the whipped cream, the hot chocolate with a taste of whipped cream mixed in theres the plain old hot chocolate, and then.... there's the sludge at the bottom. I wonder if the snobs like the levels of their hot chocolate like they like their men. If so, they pour out most of their hot chocolate and then drink the sludge. Because somehow the preps have been choosing the worst guys lately. I dont understand why they want jerks for boyfriends. Oh well, I guess I can give them my leftover sludge if that what makes tham happy ;)

I'm not the one -3OH!3

"You're way too young to have someone lie to you. I'm not the one. I'm not the one who wants to hurt you."
"You better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself."
"Drink the poison lightly, because there are deeper and darker things than you. I know I've been there too."

The most fun, sweetest, and most unloved :l

Those things shouldn't usually go together but my one best friend is all of those things. She is in love with a boy, a very smart one in fact, but he has yet to realize it. She cries to me because she thinks he hates her and will never love her.
It makes me wonder how smart this boy really is! How can he not see a girl who would do anything to just have him call her pretty ONCE? I try to keep her protected from jerks and I've succeeded but if he turns out to be a jerk I can't stop this one. I'm so worried that I might lose a sweet girl because of her never being loved before and self destructing herself in the process of trying to find one boy who can fill the hole all the others have left. I'm praying tht she'll realize that I love her enough to make up for any heartbreak that one "smart" boy may cause. I'm praying she'll be ok after this.
Love you A

Broken

One of my favorite songs to sing to! This is by Seether and Amy Lee (Evanescence) and I love Amy's range, and just the song in general. It's relatively old but very good :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeI4Ft8P7ks&feature=related

A Twist In My Story

After the morning I've had... I'm amazed at how much I love this song. It's very good and I enjoy it a lot :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWz8diQa3oI 

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence
-The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears
-So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
-And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive
-My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears
-So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
-I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get
-So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

Too many good songs I've heard today! Good problem to have ;) I've been questing to hear all of my favorites bands songs ever made. All in good spirit. Anyways, Enjoy :)
You and I- Secondhand Serenade
"Take my hand and we'll run away leave behind our pasts to stay"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHh1RMYQIK0

Bullet in hand- Redlight King
I like the beat for some reason. The lyrics dont amaze me but otherwise it's pretty good.

Apparently Secondhand Serenade did a cover for Fix You by Cold Play. I'm excited to hear that considering I love the song in general. I used it to calm my little sister down on one of our family trips to New York.

In my quest, I found a rather interesting video. It has "emo quotes" The ones that hit me the hardest were at 1:29, 1:38, 1:55, 2:02, 2:13, 3:02, 3:10, 3:30, 4:10, 4:17
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&v=5n_s7TvTliU&NR=1

Stay close, Don't go- Secondhand Serenade
I like this whole song. Good lyrics, nice instrumental going on, all around a good sweet song.

Secondhand Serenade also made a good cover to Animal by Neon Trees. Its a little sweeter than the original but I think it complements it well.

Hope you like listening :)

Suppose

Secondhand Serenade again :) Like this part of the lyrics:
"Tell me a secret, I want it. Tell me a story, I need it. I'll listen attentively. I'll stay awake all night."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXb34z5nsFQ&feature=related

Stranger

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tT7lQp-ZnBg
I like the accompaniment and the lyrics. I just found it on youtube and thought it was quite post worthy.
 "You can me a stranger, you say I'm in danger. All those thoughts are leaving you tonight. I'm broke and abandoned. You are an angel making all my dreams come true tonight. Take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are."

Fall for you

I already have :) but this was my first ever Seconhand Serenade song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FKi125iqnFg&ob=av2e

The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
-But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
-This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
-Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
-So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Your call

By Secondhand Serenade
"Wating on your call I'm sick. I am angry. I am desperate for your voice, listening."
"I'm tired of feeling all alone and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home."
I love the song, the meaning, the lyrics, the artist. Just everything. And it fits my day :P 

Just Isn't Easy

Poetry just isn't easily achieved for me when I'm upset. I want to but I can't. So here I am hating myself for drawing this out. L, I love you so much. But I can't stand it anymore. Every word I hear just breaks my heart because I remember all the others clearly. She says she misses 6th because we were all friends? I told her that months ago and she stuck up her nose and said she hated it because she was a nerd. I don't understand why she adopted my view but she did. Who knows, maybe I'm the one who's pretending. Babe, I don't want to drain you. She's better for you, that's why I'm doing this. I can't have my craziness hurt everyone. Im no good for you. T, don't hate me for this, I have to. I can't help but hate myself when I can get so upset over someone I don't even love anymore. I want to be here for you. L, if you're still reading T says my world is going to fall apart even more because of this. And it might, but what he doesnt know is that you should always try to get everyone on the lifeboats before the ship sinks. Grab you're lifeboat babydoll, there's only so many offered. I don't know if I'm hoping you'll put up a fight for this or I'm hoping you'll go down easy. I like knowing I'm worth fighting for, but I don't even think I am anymore... maybe it's best if you just let her take care of you. Babe, I just can't deal with it anymore. With Eli in my brain there's no place to run. You have to give up to save everyone else sometimes. I just love you too much to put you through anymore torture. I see it. I always have. I hurt you a lot and I know it. Bad big sister I am. I just need to fade out now. It's the only reasonable conclusion as far as I can see. Love you both. Also, I have a really cool limp right now. Just saying :) Sometimes I think the things I do with the best intentions end the worst for me. Forgiving him only halfway was one of those. She pretended to be mad at him for a little while you know. I always asked her if she was ok first before dating someone she may have liked. She didnt do the same for me. She doesnt ask anymore. She doesnt care. You don't believe me, I know, but it's so true. The acid kills fast but it deceives you first. I watched it killing me for months. I found an antidote and he's the only reason Im still surviving. She doesnt even see it. She doesnt listen. That's why I do. I know how it hurts to be ignored. Especially now. If you want to find me, listen to me first. When running the maze, they try to stop you, but you have to read the hidden codes to get the cure. I still need the cure. I can wait for a while though, promise me you'll both be ok? Please? I can only save so many more before my opportunity is over.

The Story of Us by Taylor Swift
"So many things you wish I knew, but the story of us might be ending soon. Now im standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking and I'm dying to know if it's killing you like it's killing me"
Boom-lay Boom-lay Boom (Diamond eyes) by Shinedown
"I'm on the front line don't worry I'll be fine the story's just beginning. I say goodbye to my weakness, so long to my regrets and now I see the world through diamond eyes..." "What are you worth? The things you love or the people you hurt?"

Snowglobe

Glitter falling serenly.
Light filtering through the water,
but we aren't drowning.
We're smiling in a winter wonderland.
Watching life go by,
and we wonder why.
We are inside this globe in a peaceful place.
While joy and choas outside coincide,
but in here we are safe swimming in our peaceful tide.
We watch the holiday pass with a blur.
Not moving just smiling.
Until one day the green tree is taken down.
Our smiles turn to frowns.
We watch the clean up occur.
Until our globe is picked up.
We are shaken around,
picked up one last time.
Then we are placed in a dark box
the box we'll be in until next year's holiday.
Until then we can swim and play,
while waiting for the eventful day
when we will be the center of attention once again.

Fine by Me (Continued)

A lovely song by Andy Grammar that Colbie Calliat features in. I heard it live recently and really liked it and found a liking for Andy as well. (The song "Biggest man in Los Angeles" is great) I just like the song, the lyrics, the whole shebang. Here's the lyrics though for a quick scan :) Enjoy listening if you decide to
You're not the type
Type of girl to remain
With the guy, with the guy too shy
Too afraid to say, he'll give his heart to you forever
I'm not the boy that will fall to his knees
With his hands clenched tight
Begging, begging you please
To stay with him for worse and for better
But I'm staring at you now There's no one else around I'm thinking you're the girl for me
I'm just saying it's fine by me If you never leave And we can live like this forever It's fine by me
In the past I would try
Try hard to commit to a girl
 Wouldn't get too far
And it always somehow seemed to fall apart
And with you, you, you I can see what I need
I can dream realistically
I knew that this was different from the start
And it seems that every time
We're eye to eye
I can find another piece of you
That I don't wanna lose 
 And I'm staring at you now There's no one else around I'm thinking you're the girl I need
I'm just saying it's fine by me If you never leave And we can live like this forever It's fine by me
I'm just saying it's fine by me If you never leave And we can live like this forever It's fine by me
And it's never easy
Darling, believe me I'm as sceptical as you
When I think of life without 'us'
She's like "what we supposed to do?"
But I don't wanna come on too strong
I'm just saying it's fine by me If you never leave We can live like this forever It's fine by me

Fine by me (Good Andy Grammar song also ;P Just different for details)

Don't you just hate it when everyone seems to rely on one answer? Time just stops and everyone freezes and waits for you to spit out the answer they want to hear? "I stand up with shaking hands, all eyes on me. Horrified looks from everyone in the room but I'm only looking at you." (Speak now by Taylor Swift) Even without being able to look at you while talking I know which answers need some tweaking from the truth. I try to be honest all the time for you. But then sometimes I know that it doesn't matter. Sure, I might want you to stay, but there are better ways to use your time than trying to fix pieces of glass that are broken. We already tried that. It didnt work.
Plus, "fine" is a relative term. Compared to some, I am much more than fine. I am downright blessed. I have so much and I dont even realize it and there are people with nothing who hurt everyday and dont say a word. So yes, I'm fine. But compared to how you want me to be, no I am messed up. But the funny thing is, you can console me and it'll help but I'll still have to make up the difference myself. So I won't make you fix me when I'm capable of doing it myself, That's just silly. I'm sorry I can't be honest with you about that. But I know that fine knows no limits. I just have to tell myself I'm fine and I will be again until another tide comes in. At that point I hope you'll be able to laugh at me as I come out of the water with my soaking wet hair over my face like seaweed and I'm spluttering out water and giggling while trying to make my bathing suit look like a bathing suit again.
I'll be ok you just gotta wait it out. My love for you and this world will wait it out too :)

Waitress

"Dear baby,
I hope someday someone wants to hold you for 20 minutes straight. And thats all. They don't look at your face or pull away or try to kiss you. Just wrap their arms around you and hold you there. Everyone needs someone like that."
"I was addicted to saying things, baby, and having them matter to someone."

He is good

Song for today: Mama's song by Carrie Underwood. I love it for the lyrics. They're helping me get through today while looking forward to tomorrow.
"I think I found the answer to your prayers and he is good, so good. He treats your little girl like a real man should. He is good, so good. He makes promises he keeps. No, he's never gonna leave, so don't you worry about me."