Super FANTASTIC

Yesterday I apologized for when I was young and foolish and posted 6 things a day.... And this is my third for today.... But I found THIS. And I love it! You'll love it too! I hope... 
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PT8gcZh_42w
And just to keep it rolling I will search for more awesome stuff like that!

I really like this too
Find me -Christina Grimmie
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5yWGE-fsBNA

I like What Hurts The Most as well and it's really interesting to see what the fancy sound equipment did.
Mostly I think it just helped her come across a little more above the piano. Love it even without it though!
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vQnxclvmoFE#/watch?v=vQnxclvmoFE

So it officially too late for any more youtube searching! I bid thee farewell and happy listening =^~.~^=

Begin Again -Taylor Swift

This song sounds more like the Taylor Swift that has a hall of fame on my dorky little CD turntable thing. In other words I like it. And yes, I do have CDs :p Enough to fill up the spiny rack (that I mentioned before) to the point that it can no longer spin. I guess I don't trust my MP3 player to be there for me all the time... It has commitment issues. All it does is "break and burn and end"  :p hope you like the song

All About Us -He Is We

Ladies and Gents please welcome the return of He Is We :) I like this song a lot and the artist in general is just really worthwhile. I like the music video as well. Hope you like!
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=R7Gf2SOmz5Q

One Year and a New Year

So I feel like talking. To myself, to anyone who replies, whomever. But it's been a year since I started this.  Have things changed?  Well I don't hang out with that same group of friends who never listened. So yes, in a way they have.  Now I don't get so discouraged that I don't give anyone a chance to listen.
Now I am reasonably assured that T isn't going anywhere and that he listens half the time :p
Now I don't bother you guys with six posts a day.... Sorry about that :)
But also I get half the reads I used to.... I'm not sure if that bothers me.  It's not about how many people read it for me. It's more about how many people it means something to.  So I hope I've done a service for you guys somehow, some way and that's why you come back.     And if not I'll keep trying? :p I don't know
Maybe if I can't help you out here I can engineer you something to save the world (environmental engineer wanna be here. Call me crazy irrational if you must, but I do believe at the top of the page I announced I was a dreamer :p So obviously that much hasn't changed.)
I have became a little more business savvy at least.  My little scarf and earring business is doing the best it probably ever has.
If I had to say one super extremely different thing though, I would probably say I wonder about the world a lot more now. I see what country my views come from and I just wish that I could meet all of you. It just seems so unreal to me. Heck, I don't even have a passport!
So that is all for tonight. Are you smiling? Youuuu shoulllddddddd beeeeee :) we've all got something worth smiling over.
Happy New Year if we don't meet again before then

Time Flies?

So in case you weren't around here listening a year ago I'm excited to let you know that tomorrow is my blogs one year anniversary! It feels.... Strange. I feel like one year ago I was really stupid :p and if any of you had the patience to listen to me back then I apologize, but thank you! I got a rocking CD from my also bloggy friend for Christmas (bloggy? Reminds me of froggy..... Oh well, sticking with it) so I would like to share a little bit of the love.
I Saw Her Standing There -The Beatles
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=oroSpLjkCvo

I have also amused myself with some girl angst pop. It's also from the pre 2000s :p 
Sixteen -No Doubt 
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aplDvN-Zu78
So I highly suggest finding a different video for sound quality but I thought someone else might
Find the video... Amusing I'm really liking the sweatpants up to the belly button. Always in style :p

And just because I found this on youtube just now 
Misery -The Maine
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&v=50J1qwE1h7M#/watch?feature=related&v=50J1qwE1h7M
And as far as the music video.... I mean who doesn't pour gasoline on people for fun? :p

Just thought I would also mention since it's been a year I don't always recall every post and I thought it was really nice to see that some of my stuff from April was being looked over.  So thanks again for listening, I know you don't do it for my charming personality :p

It's Dis-Concert-ing

So I went to a concert the other day and actually enjoyed it (the disconcerting part was the screaming teenage girls who thought that it was endearing to listen to them squeal. It was not)  This is going to be so full of songs I apologize already :P
So a very lovable band that was there was Walk the Moon. They put on a really exciting show and I liked this song and video. So this is one: Anna sun
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qDVW81bXo0s

I also found that I like Connor Maynard a lot. He makes two: Next to You
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=061by9poGNM

And recently a friend introduced me to JJ Heller, and I loved the song so that makes three: 
What love really means- in a weird way the first part reminds me of the Eragon series...
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EqWf-XehllA

Then earlier a different friend showed me a FANTASTIC youtube artist. She is so talented!
And she makes four:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zcL8zrkBpVQ

Climbing

Only so much air my lungs will take,
As I watch this land in which I partake.
Climbing up isn't easy
But neither is writing a daydream.
I climbed up without you
And back down again I shall go.

Your stiff embrace does little more than chill my frame.
I look upon your face with shame.
When will we be the same again?
Tell me, what was my tragic sin?
I fear that you will never again be my friend
You have no more love left to lend.

I carry on without you
I glimpse your face as I often do.
You glide away, drifting on love you didn't save.
I walk away from your haunting laugh
Maybe if I return to the mountain
All will be made plain.

Climbing up still isn't easy.
But neither is only watching.
Watching as our lives fly by,
But one day I won't have to wonder why.

The A Team -Ed Sheeran

I heard this on a radio station which is intriguing considering my area hardly listens to anything that doesn't sound like them.  Right now I feel like they hardly listen at all.  I've been caught in a trap of childhood. A boy I grew up with and fancied I'd never be apart from decided yesterday I wasn't worth a moment of his attention. I must admit after 6 years I expected a better reception.
For you readers I hope no one in your midst ever misjudged the worth of hearing and understanding you. It feels almost like a betrayal. But regardless, here is the song:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=80efJ9Z9tHY
"She's in the Class A Team. Stuck in her daydream, been that way since 18. But lately her face seems
 slowly sinking, wasting."
 "The worst things in life come free to us."

Merry Go 'Round -Kacey Musgraves

Heard this song in the car the other day and it pulled my attention. It wasn't any country singer I had ever heard before and her voice is beautiful! Even better the song is intriguing.  Especially for me right now. The lines "we think the first time's good enough. So we hold on to high school love. Say we won't end up like our parents." It really makes me wonder if holding on can be the right thing to do just because you know that's what you're supposed to do. Anyway, thanks for reading and listening!
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=iJjeWDvh6J0&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DiJjeWDvh6J0

Origins -Tennis; My Better Self -Tennis

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=a29g5ygQQak
This new band sounds interesting. In some songs you can guess where the melody is going, but with
 Tennis that isn't true. I really liked the song and was glad to find this while YouTube surfing.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gY5kKn24qvs
This video left me thinking 'Well..... She has pretty eyes.' 

Table for one -Passenger

"Why'd they teach me to follow my dreams when dreams are all they'll be?"
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=teOQS_Tzfyo
Weirdest music video ever but the song is nice. I've had a rough two days. Hopefully life has treated you all much better.

Broken -Lifehouse

Heard this song today and it sounded so familiar I really like how it sounds and its just what I needed today. Halloween party tomorrow. I will definitely be one of the more original character choices :p Exciting part is though I crocheted part of my costume. I am really proud of that, it shows that my crochet skills are finally coming along! Well, I hope every one is doing alright tonight. Enjoy the song :)
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=I6cdPeYJh0s&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DI6cdPeYJh0s

Lead me -Sanctus Real

This song is very sweet and since its my one year anniversary I felt it was appropriate. I really like this guys voice. It's a nice message to go along with it as well.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mGfriqAZdHA

Hallelujah -Rufus Wainwright

This song has been stuck in my head and I got T to play it for me last night. Seems so strange that's it's been almost a year since I convinced him to do anything for me :P. He means well, I could guarantee that much. There's talk in my group of friends of dressing up like Disney princesses next year. The frenzy of princess ideas is dizzying. I've convinced T to join the ranks as my prince. Too bad I have no idea what to be for Halloween this year!
Regardless, this song is lovely and I feel sorry for the person who 'doesn't care for music.' Today my lesson from it is that 'love is not a victory march, it's a cold and broken hallelujah.'
Hopefully my cold and broken hallelujah can last its fair share of time.
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ebtqoKHyHzk&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DebtqoKHyHzk

Tonight -Seether

Heard this yesterday and just couldn't resist the urge. I've missed blogging so much! Never thought that I would love to do it and need to as much as I think I so now. Hopefully my technology won't give up :P then I can continue with this. 
This song caught my attention when I wasn't supposed to be listening to the music but was ( story of my life :P ). I thought it was weird because the first thing I heard was 'like sugar and cyanide'. I think it is a pretty good song. The video has some misspellings but I hope you like it :)
http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwrel&v=-BWPRighKMI

When somebody loves you

Long time no post! I found a CD that was made for me a longtime ago that had a song on it that I think is off of Toy Story 2. I love the song it's sad but pretty. www.youtube.com/watch?v=px0j1EHF840 Hope you guys have seen the movie so you get it!

Note to Self: Don't Read Scary Books

Reading scary books is terribly unbecoming of me. I cringe and get spooked and repine, a lot! So to calm myself down after a good sit down with Hide by Lisa Gardner, I planned to go on a good trail run early one morning. Actually, trail run wasn't the right word I came to find out. I was going to the woods in my neighborhood and I found my old path over grown. Okay, I took that in stride and trekked through the brush. I had fully accepted that I was going to have a major case of Poison Ivy by the time I got home and that my trail was never going to clear out. So I happily bounced through the bushes, but jumped at every noise. (Paranoia at it's finest) Then I came to a very well used trail.... No over-growth to speak of. It CREEPED me out. What if I had a Christopher or Tommy (book characters) living in my own backyard? O.O I was very weary after that. I crept down the trail in one direction to find a shed with a window facing my exact location. Since I had read that book recently I jumped behind a tree and then fled for my life. Totally ridiculous, I may add. One other part of the path was just a small loop. The last part went to a yard in my neighborhood. I am still not entirely sure I trust the trail now but I will run on it again... but with a friend next time..... Just to be safe..... I need to stop reading freaky books :P Agreed?

Missing you

Flash backs and old memories,
are all that comes from re-reading these.
I can't help but feel a sadness return,
when it's for you that I yearn.
All alone since you left,
just flipping through pictures.
Seeing your face,
reading your words.
Sitting idly and waiting for you,
waiting to see you come into view.
But you are eluding,
on new landscapes intruding.
So still I will read and reminisce,
waiting for the day you will return looking so careless.
As if creating suspense was your only intention,
or at least the only one you care to mention.
Return quickly,
on you I wait.
Until then, I miss you.

Love Remains the Same -Gavin Rossdale; We've Got a Big Mess On our Hands -The Academy Is..

This song is more sentimental. I like it because it's slow and Gavin's voice is nice, albeit gritty sometimes. I think it's unique and good either way though.

This The Academy Is... song is... different :P It has 'Ah's in it that sound like some kind of instrument. I probably sound crazy :) but really you'd have to listen to understand.

So there's my recommendations for the day :P Sorry for the lack of description in some places. It's really something you just have to hear for yourself!

If Life Were a Movie...

If life was a film-makers creation, I think the job description of little kids would be as the comic relief :P Little kids just look at things so differently and are so brutally honest. Yesterday I was with my pregnant friend, a little boy and some other people. The little boy's mother says to him "Look she's growing a baby in her tummy! Isn't that cool???" The little boy looks at his mom, then looks at my friend. "Her? Her tummy has a baby?" He asked. "Yeah! It's great!" His mom gushed.
You could see the thought process in this little boy's mind. As far as he was concerned, my friend had trapped a baby in her tummy, was holding it hostage and his mom thought it was 'great!'. He was just wondering 'Where does that leave me??' O.o  He's so cute though and I love him to death! Little kids make my day :)

The Strenographer -Relient K

This song bounces all over the place and it makes for a strangely entertaining listen. I like the techno at the end. It's really short because it's just a demo. But the beginning reminds me of The Academy Is... Speaking of which I want to find some more of them. I shall return bearing fruit of my youtube searching... hopefully :)

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been -Relient K

This song just sings to my heart. There's always a chance to change who you are.
"And I was positive that unless I got my self together I would watch me fall apart and i can't let that happen again. Because then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life.
I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to make sure that I never become that way again. Because who I am hates who I've been."

Always Working on New Things

So I have two scarves which I need to finish and lots of beads I feel obligated to use. But now I have glass bottles at my disposal! My brain has been cranking out ideas all day of what to do. Because I have to do SOMETHING :P I'm recalling seeing melted down bottles at the beach before. They were put in a kiln so that they melted to flatness. I think it would be cool if I could add a twist to that... but I don't have a kiln. Hmm. Let the games begin!

My Happy Ending -Avril Lavigne

"Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead
Was it something I did? Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging in a city so dead, held up so high by such a breakable thread.
You were everything I thought I knew and I thought we could be
-You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of our memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
-You've got your dumb friends, I know what they say.
They tell you I'm difficult but so are they.
But they don't know me, do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the **** that you do
You were everything I thought I knew and I thought we could be
-You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of our memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
-It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care and making me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done"
I like this song, it has good kick backs and it helped a lot in my life when someone treated me like I was the only one. Needless to say I wasn't. But also, he wasn't everything that I wanted. So I'm all the better for it ;)

40 days and 40 nights

I have 40 days of writing ahead of me. I have set out on a task to write while T is gone every single day. They will be presented to him on his birthday. It seems daunting but I am excited none the less!
Music to encourage my hand not to cramp and for my thoughts to flow? Sure, why not!
I've had this song stuck in my head for atleast a week if not more
I Never Told You -Colbie Calliat (Sad thing is that most of these lyrics will be coming from off the top of my head since they've been floating around in there)
"I miss those blue eyes, how you kissed me at night, I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile, I miss the way we breathe
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
-I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see where I belong to when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
-But I never told you what I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

That Time of Year

It was that time of year again guys! Taking care of little girls, smiling, laughing, acting CRAZY! That pretty much sums up Girl Scout Camp. The girls always amaze me :) I was feeling a little sick so I put on my girl scout smile and went to hang out in my tent. Low and behold I had a little girl who turned down all other offers to do fun stuff so that she could hang out with me. Anyone else see something wrong with this??? Cards, fun stuff: 'No.' Sick feeling older girl: 'Heck yes! sounds fun' Hm. Anyways I love her to death :) <3
Also my other little friend who I met the very first day and LOVED. She is just precious and caring and patient. I see a bright future for her in life. Camp always reminds me of the potential our children have. *Sigh*
Also nice, we woke up earlllyyy in the morning (or late in the night, depends on how you look at it :P) and 5 older girls hiked up to a local landmark. Camp is on a mountainous state park. We hiked to an old structure that sits on the ridge of the mountain and overlooks the city. We went up there and watched the morning sunrise. It was beautiful! The lights of the city before the sun rose were really cool too. Today has been enlightening and encouraging. It made me glad to be alive.
Also, it made me glad to be alive because I almost drown in the lake yesterday... So yeah... I lived! Yay!!!

Two for the Price of One

So I go to fye (local music store for anyone who doesn't know) because I have $2 on a gift card. I browse around and then find a Relient K CD for $4. I was pretty impressed with that since there were 26 songs on the CD. Upon arrival in the car I pop it in. I like looking at the little books albums come with so I start to search for it. I find it and pull it out but there's still something in the case. It's one of the paper cases with the little cubby slots if you're wondering. I shake it and out comes a printed but unnamed CD. It doesn't look like Relient K though. I pop it in and recognize the songs. It is confirmed to be a Sublime CD. So I will peruse it since it has so craftily been given to me. Not bad to get two CDs for $1.88!

Where's a cat?

Finally changed the profile name. If you guys are curious it's my first initial and what my little girl scout friends call me because of my middle name. I like it better. It's more fitting since I have ohhh a MILLION nicknames. Hope it doesn't freak anyone out :)

Some Kind of Wonderful

I feel like rolling down a hill or jumping in some mud. The most nervewracking test I have ever had to take is DONE. *Sigh of relief!* In honor of that wonderful notion a song :)
Some Kind of Wonderful by Grand Funk Railroad
This song came to mind today when I heard it on the radio and it felt right to post. So, here it is. Maybe it'll mean something to you guys too!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTuIXtXUEw4

Cicada Zombie Apocalypse O.o

So, kittens at the place I volunteer were playing with a dead cicada. So when I find another dead cicada I thought I would give it to them. I pick it up to find that it has no head and is being devoured by ants. I think to myself 'Okay, just shake off the ants and let the kittens play with it' So that's what I intend to do. Then I notice it's legs twitching. 'Okay, I've heard of stuff like that before. No big deal. After all it doesn't even have a HEAD' I get inside to the kittens and lay it down for them. It starts full out kicking. 'Okay, not normal' I go to pick it up and the thing starts flapping it's wings and clicking and acting like  a real live cicada. BUT IT HAS NO HEAD! So my logical brain is telling me 'If it looks like a live cicada, moves like a live cicada and sounds like a live cicada its probably alive!' So I'm observing it struggle wondering what to do to it when it stings/stabs me with the sharp end of it's butt! At this point I decided that I would not let a zombie cicada patronize me. (Especially since I'm allergic to stinging bugs and I don't know what just happened!) I put it out of it's misery.  Crazy thing!
But yeah if you're a tl;dr kind of person THE CICADA ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE EXISTS!

Don't You Know You're Beautiful -Seabird

I think T might agree with this :P If he would ever get on here!! Sigh. I like the song it's sad but well made.

Don't you remember
You were happy when you were younger
Things were so simple yeah
'Til the day you walked out on your mother
But now you blame yourself Because you're by yourself
You feel like it's not gonna to change
You're crying on the floor cause you can take no more
Looking for a way to escape
-And all this time saying you were fine
And everyone still to blame
Well there you are
You and your broken heart
It's written all over your face
-Don't you know
Don't you know that you're beautiful yeah
-I see you laughing But I know inside that you're crying
Just tell me what happened when things went wrong
We'll try to make sense of it all
Please don't blame yourself Cause you're not by yourself
I've been right here all along
Don't have to be alone Because you've always know
Wherever your heart is my home
-And all this time
Saying you were fine And everyone still to blame
Well there you are
You and your broken heart
It's written all over you're face
-Don't you know don't you know that you're beautiful
-Can't you see what you mean to me

Days Go On -Greg Laswell

Pandora brought this song up for me. I like it a lot.
"All I know is that my days go on and on
Without you here"

Traveling through Life

Today, has been difficult. I found a song on a blog I like that has made it a little better though. I don't want to post it for the fact that I found it on another blog but it's by a band called Passenger. I like it a lot. It's made my headache bearable. As everyone scoffs at me listening to music while having a headache. I'm sorry guys! I'm vulnerable to a good song!
Title is a nod to the band name and also to the fact that I'm somehow still moving on this journey.

Remind Me -Brad Paisley

This song has Carrie Underwood in it as well and I love the combination :)
The song is sweet
"Now we keep saying that we're okay
But I don't want to settle for good, not great
I miss the way it felt back then
I want to feel that way again
-Been so long, bet you orget
the way I used to kiss your neck
Remind me, Remind me
-So on fire, so in love
way back when we couldn't get enough
Remind me, Remind me"

Stand By Me -Ben E. King

This song is really good and I've heard it sung by many artists. I love covers of it featuring soprano girl voices. This song can really show case an artist's ability. Look up a version that suits you :)
I have a name idea but I'm not changing it yet. Just if you were wondering...

Musings

I'm considering changing my profile name. I know that it is a little out there. Also, the friend who deemed it my title for the rest of my life (Okay, she may not have been that harsh about it :P) Has drifted away from me and I don't feel as closely bound to the name as I used to. So, if you guys read this and find it posted by a different profile name DO NOT BE ALARMED. Even though no one but me probably cares :P I'm on the hunt for a more fitting one. I will be considering it, hopefully next time I will have a good idea! Ideas are excepted, if indeed someone else does care :P

Breakfast at Tiffany's -Dark Blue Something

I like this song but I never knew the name before. But alas! Pandora has revealed it to me. I love this song. Look it up :)
'And I said "What about Breakfast at Tiffany's?"'

You Know Where To Find Me -Matthew West

"It's like you're drowning right in front of me"
That sums up how I felt last night. I couldn't stop it. I like this song. It has a good beat and meaning. Matthew West is good. Future posts of his will be sure to come. 

Up and Up -Relient K

"Yesterday was not quite what it could have been
As were most of all the days before.But I swear today with every breath I'm breathing in
I'll be trying to make it so much more"
"Cause I'm just trying to be a better version of me for you."
-Sorry about yesterday, T. I'll make it better.

Be My Escape -Relient K

This song and band are wonderful. I love the acoustic and the normal equally, and that usually doesn't happen! So whatever you like better, go look up. I hope you guys will like it!!
"Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity. And I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key. And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me."

She's Got a Boyfriend Now -Boys Like Girls

Lyrics for you guys, because I think everything will be alright but who knows, I could be wrong.
We were 17 and invincible
Had the world figured out
And the girl on my shoulder told me
"Everything's gonna be alright"And everything was gonna be alright
Yeah maybe we were in highschool
But you never see the ending
When you're young in love pretending singin'
Everything's gonna be alright And everything was gonna be alright (whoah-oh)
-Buried her deep inside
Stars stuck in my eyes
-And now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rockband
Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned
Yeah, she's in Ohio
And I'm on some back road
Driving to the city and then who knows
Guess that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
-Then I took a trip out to L.A
For the girl with a smile
That could take your breath away, I'm thinkin'
Everything's gonna be alright And everything was gonna be alright
Maybe I thought I could sweep in And sweep her off her feet and go right back to Boston
Thinkin' everything's gon' be alright And everything was gonna be alright
-The streets keep rolling on
But now she's so far gone
-And now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rockband
Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned
Yeah, she's on the west coast
And I'm on some back road
Driving to the city and then who knows
Guess that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
-Take me back to you somehow,
With everything that I know now
It's so hard, I tore us apart
Take me back to feeling like the world
Would just keep dealing me the right cards,
Now you're just so far
-And I'm 23 and and invincible
Got the world figured out
And the bird on my shoulder told me
"Everything's gonna be alright"
But is everything gonna be alright?-And now she's got a boyfriend
And I've got a rockband
Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned
Yeah, she's in Ohio
And I'm on some back road
Driving to the city and then who knows
Guess that's all she wrote
I wish that I could turn this car around
But she's got a boyfriend now
-I wish that I could turn this car around
'cause there she goes
I wish that I could press rewind somehow
'cause she's got a boyfriend now

Jumper -Third Blind Eye

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.
-The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight,
You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, on a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,
Well everyone I know has got a reason,
to say, put the past away,
-I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again,
I would understand,
I would understand.
And well he's on the table,
and he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left you,
You've been dismissed.
I never thought it would come to this,
and I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today, We can put the past away,
-I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again,
I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...
-Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,

You're So Last Summer -Taking Back Sunday

My Pandora has produced more for you guys. This song is interesting because I can't imagine saying this to a boy. But apparently someone said it to him! No youtube again *sigghhhh*

"She said 'Don't
Don't let it get to your head
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.'
She said 'You're a touch overrated.
You're a lush and I hate it'"

Selling, Studying, Songs and more

So I've been busy with all assortments of studying lately. But I do have a few songs I want to post. Also I had been busy with my first ever booth sale! *Yayyyy* I made more than I hoped to and I enjoyed my time selling. My boyfriend's mom even stopped by to pick up something :P Wasn't expecting that for sure!
So here's a dilemma: When doing a project with someone from the complete opposite end of the learning caste system should you A) Do all the work because you know the product will be better that way and then say they did some or B) Say they didn't do any, but you kinda didn't let them? I don't know I haven't decided I've done most of the work and I can't say he tried to help much but I'm not sure I would have wanted him too.

And now music :) Still love-hating Pandora :P
But it got me this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NMTvmDTO1pk
This being Dark Blue, by Jack's Mannequin. I like it it sounds cool.

Also, just as a bonus because I dug out my CD last night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_QlhFfVtxU
One of the Boys, by Katy Perry.

Just A Dream -Carrie Underwood

I have been in love with this song for a very long time. It's another one of those songs that is sad, but because I'm a freak I love :P Oh well. Video for you and lyrics for me :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLntFKtR66g&ob=av2e
It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand
-Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream
-The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart
-Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream
-Oh, Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream
-Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah

No Love -Simple Plan

Watching a group of teenage boys mutilate a dead bird that I wanted to save less than 5 minutes earlier is possibly the worst thing that could have happened today. I let my tongue slip. I shouldn't have. So here's a song. No youtube so lyrics is all I can offer. Sorry guys.
"There's only hate, there is only tears. There's only hate, there's no love here. So what will you do? There's only lies. There's only pain. There's only fear, there is no love here. Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces. You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile. If these walls could talk they'd have so much to say because every time you fight the scars will heal but they're never gonna go away."
I can't believe that boys can act like that. And also that I will watch them, or others like them, act that way their whole lives. It's.... unbelieveable

Chasing Immortals

Door flies open,
You float through.
A ghost of me,
The present you.
I stare at you
Not amused
Where have you been?
I'm so confused.
Your hazy eyes and vacant stare
Have I always looked this unaware?
I want to make you turn away.
This isn't me!
I want to say.
But something in you strikes toward home
A roaring ache,
an unconscious moan.
This is what I will always be.
Somewhere deep inside of me.
I hear her whisper
'Funny right?
That I've always been here as you slept at night.
That all your dreams you thought were your own
Were my creations,
from my hand sown.'
I won't believe it,
I turn my head.
I refuse to let one tear be shed.
She is not who I am,
nor who I will be,
I will grow past her and never again will she meet me.
Back out the door, towards the sidewalk, I shove her.
The door once again closed and bolted.
Facing away I shutter.
A bitter, cold night to be chasing my shadows.
To never see her again is something that I can't even fathom.
No matter how many battles though,
She will never prevail,
as long as it is towards my dreams that I sail.

For Lucas. The boy who asked for poetry :)

Only One -Yellowcard

I love this song for the intense drops and pick ups. The music video is curious but I like it. So here it is. I present to you an Yellowcard original :P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJLkcPhVi9w&ob=av2e
"I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do. you are my only, my only one"
"Here I go, So dishonestly. Leave a note for you, my only one. And I know you can see right through me, so let me go and you will find someone."

Swing, Swing - All American rejects

I revisited my Pandora today. I remembered how much of a love- hate relationship I have with it. I love the variety and new artists I can find. I HATE the fact that I can only play the song once and that I can't reverse! Also my Pandora has been skipping today. So when this song came on I heard 30 seconds before it changed. I was just staring like 'No! I love that song!!!!' So here. Hopefully you guys will give it a better chance than Pandora did!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzLBnoAf67g

How You Love Me Now -Hey Monday

I like the kick backs in this song :) So here it is. I'm liking this band a lot!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0HJYRHIyGg&feature=related

Candles -Hey Monday

Here is my Hey Monday post! I picked this song because I l-o-v-e candles. A lot! I'm an outdoors-y person but little indoor fires are a pretty good big fire substitute. I like the vocals of this song. Anyway, enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bKDL-NhBYks
Also, I'm not sure if I like the new post window... We'll see I guess!

'How Does That Make You Feel?'

I feel really witty today :P It's strange. I'm usually really wry with my humor. I kind of feel like you should earn a good laugh with your intelligence instead of having someone lend you one. But regardless I've been really wry today, but in a good way. I've been totally cute :P Anyway I hope you guys are having a good day. Standardized Testing is NOT fun :P I think it's eating my insides.
Friends are silly people. They always try to convince you that you're 'awesome'. Well, I'm going to tell you guys now. I am not awesome. I am scared of the dark (Actually it's the things in the dark if we're going to get specific :P) and I blog my feelings out. Which I love! Don't get me wrong. People who hate on this have never tried. But I'm not awesome. You guys read this, you knooowww what I mean :P But I'm alive and I'm ok. I don't need a pep talk all the time :P I feel like my friends want to be my shrink! So how does that make me feel? Awkward :)

Power Outage

Not having power is cool in a way. I kinda like the whole candle flickering ambiance. But not having Internet isn't as cool :-/ But I have power now and my candles are dying out. I'm tired. Had a really rough day. Nothing a good song couldn't fix but I'm honestly too exhausted to search. So here are a few good songs off the top of my head: Iris (Goo goo dolls), All the small things (Blink 182), Someday when I stop Loving You (Carrie Underwood), Summer Hair=Forever Young (The Academy Is...)
So, I'm thinking I need to look up who Hey Monday is. If you guys beat me to it let me know if you approve :) I reserve the right to make a post about any of the above songs later when I'm not feeling like one of the walking dead!
Also: I think it's frankly sad that I misspelled my correction to 'Scorch Trials' twice in my other post about the James Dashner series. I feel really unintelligent for that :P Oh well. I meant well! I promise.
I bid you goodnight

Don't You Remember -Adele

Adele is a pretty well known artist recently where I am. I felt a want to post one of her songs though. I don't know. This one appealed to me so I'm searching for the reason as I type.I think it reminds me of myself from a few years ago. I kind of hoped that someone would remember why they loved me and forgive me, but they didn't. That was hard and I lost a really good friendship and relationship from that. Worst part is the friendship. I could have used that still. *Sigh* Nothing I can do now. He didn't remember. But not everyone will I guess. Luckily I do. I believe I've learned a big lesson from that. I thank him for that if nothing else. I may not have healed from my actions but I'm wiser and more apathetic for them. I am sorry still if you're reading this J.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIek3WWcTtc

Excited!!!!!!!!

I am so excited to be going to my FIRST booth sale soon! I'll be selling my earrings, bracelets and scarves. I wasn't sure I would be excepted but I am so relieved to get word that I'm in! I hope I can raise some funds so I can get some much needed supplies! I want to get more things to make quilts out of. I think it would help me make them a little more precise :P Anyway, wish me luck!!!!

Long Time No Listen

So I haven't been on here in a while! It feels so... foreign to me. I have cool news though! I helped build a house today! It's going to a family that needs a home and they get to help build it too. It was really exciting. I also ran two races today. Can anyone say 'exhausted'?Found a song that I've known for a long time, but not heard in a while, today. It's more metal than I usually like but why not? :) Its a little hateful, so bear with me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2K-KIedy44

Look What You've Done -Jet

I have a confession: Slow sad songs are the key to my musical happiness. It's a little strange. But honestly I can listen to a happy song (or even better yet a sassy, mad song) and feel good for a little while but it's songs like this that just make me smile. Because... they hold emotion, I guess. So on this lovely Easter morning I heard this song and oh. My heart just ripped open and healed in two seconds flat. The piano part, the sad, faintly accented voice. Mmmm. Nothing better in my opinion. Hope everyone has had a good day. Maybe if you're like me this song will make it better :P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqRWEwnszz0

A Losing Battle

It's heavier than I am. Its more dangerous than I am. And here I am trying to push it up and down a hill. Doesn't sound like a good idea now does it? It wasn't. Having an obnoxiously heavy lawn mower just never works out. Especially when you only weigh 100 pounds. I'm surprised I didn't die :P Or that the lawn mower didn't feel bad for me and just roll over me and put me out of my misery. But anyhow, I lived! I really need some better upper arm strength though :P And maybe a lighter lawn mower!

Don't You Worry Your Pretty Little Mind

"Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine."Ours -Taylor Swift
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Jvg7MW7wHw
Funny how when the only person in this world who loves me is screaming at me is when I want to post love songs. Well, I hope this song brightens someone's day.

Dying For

Dying slowly.
Dying fast.
Dying adventurously.
Dying patiently.
Dying always.
Some of us may be gone this very day,
but we can't just let it end that way.
We have to keep fighting and finding our place,
a place that no other could ever fill.
If we just lay downtrodden, on a grassy hill
connections will be broken and fate will be stopped.
No more miracles or amazing works in our plot.
I don't want to die awaiting my last breathing moment.
I want to know I've made every atonement.
If one connection is left unmade,
it could result in dismay.
No human could have planned it.
It is past definition.
But we must realize that our lives are so much bigger than us.
And worth all the fuss.
Fighting for more moments of living each day.
Making sure no human can take it away.
That type of dying will be my only way.

Today's Going to be Good

I feel like today is going to be a good day. I'm happy, birds are chirping, I have some punk-pop blasting :P Yep, all my bases are covered. I just need a picnic blanket and some sunscreen and I'd be set. Or you know a creek to go swimming in :P Which is actually going to happen later. So yay! I love how all the Dogwoods are blooming. The pink ones are gorgeous! Anyway, have an awesome day :)

I'd do Anything -Simple Plan

Love the chords in this song. And the song in general of course :P Enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EbSA97tPvk
Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting
-And I wrote this letter in my head
Because so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone And I can't think straight
-This could be the one last chance To make you understand
-I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Because somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Because I know I won't forget you
-Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back
-So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting
-This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again
-I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Because somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Because I know I won't forget you
-I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
And I'd do anything for you
-I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Because somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Because I know I won't forget you
-I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Because I know  I won't forget you

Carry On - Fun.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nj44gF0H96c&feature=relatedThis song was brought to me by destiny :P I didn't listen to it as youtube recommended it to me time and time again. The my friend gave my the lyrics and said it reminded her of me. Well here it is! I listened multiple times. Thank you Maxine

Everything We Had - The Academy Is...

"Take the pain out of love, and the love will no longer exist"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7YqYA_rbh1Q&ob=av2e
I love the music video. And this song is for everything we had. That I may no longer have anymore.

You Are My Sunshine

You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away
-The other night, dear,
As I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.
-You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
-I'll always love you
And make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me
To love another
You'll regret it all some day;
-You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
-You told me once, dear
You really loved me
And no one else could come between
But now you've left me
And love another
You have shattered all my dreams;
-You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

Picture Perfect -Every Avenue

I'm not. Are you?http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhJTVTBNKUw&feature=g-vrec&context=G2e33bccRVAAAAAAAAAA

Society *Sigh*

Don't you just love a nice little "I'm better than you and you had better accept that" stare off? I do! (Not) They just (do not) make my day. Our society is made up of a lot of those now a days. I especially (do not) love them when everyone forgets that you are injured so they think they are really superior. They just (do not) have the best personalities! It just amazes me! They can get so contrary and wound up over such little things. Anyway, I plan to be a revolutionary :P I will actually be nice to people. Amazing isn't it!

Only Place I Call Home - Every Avenue

To my baby. I know it's hard but I promise.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b91weNkDII4
I like this song. It's sweet and  has a good rhythm. The singer has a pretty nice range as well. Help a  soprano girl out ;) Hope you guys like it too.

Not even one?

So no one has April Fools day-ed me today! I'm so confused. Usually I have to mentally prepare myself for the first day of April so that I don't make myself look too ignorant. But not a single person said a word about it to me today. It's crazy. I feel like a nice long youtube surf. Hopefully I'll bring back a good song for you guys :)

New People

Met two German girls at church today. They were very pretty and VERY tall. I had heels on and they still surpassed me by a good margin. I liked them. They were quiet but I think the language barrier was the main reason for that. The girl closest to my age smiled at me a lot. Their family was very nice as well. It was nice to have them come visit with us today :)

I Forgive You -Every Avenue

Oh I just love a good sassy song. Please forgive the language. I usually try not to put any up on here but this song is too good to pass up.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSoiTw-Cgnw
I can halfway feel this song. I thought it was me that was insane, now I don't. Its nice that she doesnt lie anymore. I did like her a little better then, but I'd rather have the truth. I'm not away from her though. Im just a little more aware now. Don't you just love the drama of friendship! Mmm it just makes my day :P

Cheater Cheater Best Friend Eater -NeverShoutNever

I was listening to this song when I was kindly informed that whatever I was listening to was stupid. So here I am putting it up for judgement. Lets see if people who listen can appreciate it :Phttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tJWYnoPDZI
"Oh I know all about your type. You're the type of girl who texts all day and talks all night."
If I were him I'd be careful around that type of girl. They're dangerous :P I would know. My best friend is one.

I'm My Own Little Disaster :)

Here I am on this pretty almost-afternoon eating frozen corn and wishing I was outside. "Eating frozen corn?" you ask. Yes, I am one of those weird people who instead of popcorn would rather have frozen corn. Instead of a popsicle, frozen peas. I don't know why. I have always had this intense love for fruits and vegetables and they're all that much better when cold (Except for some fruits. Some just don't taste right icy. Of course I must be particular :P). I also love tea. Not the usual kind that people like around here, but just straight up herbal tea. My favorite is Peppermint and Spearmint blended :) I'm just a little weird I guess. I'm full of quirky little anomalies that make me... Me! But I really would rather continue happily munching on my frozen corn rather than succomb to the ordinary :P But I hope everybody has a cool day whether it be in the mainstream or just a little outside of the box. And if you've never tried frozen corn, DO IT! :P

About a Girl - The Academy Is...

I like this guy :) His band is pretty cool and I like his attitude. Its a good song :) Hope you guys like it.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3M6ZvNmwGxs&feature=relmfu

Send My Love... -Cobra Starsip

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84saYemcJQY&feature=g-vrec&context=G2e33bccRVAAAAAAAAAAI love this video and song :) It's pretty cool and that's all there is to it. I love Cobra Starship. They know what's up. So yeah. I guess whether you like it or not, depends on if you know what's up or not :P
"Let it go. There's no way you change me now."

Pardon Me- He Is We

New artist I found this morning. I like the girl's range and the beat isn't placed where you would expect it so it has a fresh feeling to it. Anyway, I like it :P I'm currently sampling some more music of theirs. Take a listen :)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H52f0hAFL0w&feature=b-vrec

And the Design Company is Born

I have finally decided on the name for my earring and scarf business :) I have a show coming up and I'm trying to get ready for it. So far I don't know how well it's going to go. I have high hopes but a realistic mind. I was lucky to find a show this easily and I am so lucky to have a pit crew who is ready to help out :) I hope I can do this guys!

Sarah Smiles; Hurricane Panic! at the Disco

Sarah smiles reminds me of a girl by a different name that sint saving him and never will. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6mqdtLrY64&feature=relatedI was fine just a guy living on my own,
Waiting for the sky to fall
Then you called and changed it all,
Doll,
-Velvet lips and the eyes to pull me in,
We both know you'd already win,
Mm your original sin,
-You fooled me once with your eyes now honey,
You fooled me twice with your lies and I say,
-Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care,
She lives in her world so unaware,
Does she know that my destiny lies with her,
-Sarah (Sarah, Sarah, Sarah)
Oh Sarah (Sarah) are you saving me?
-Waking up to a kiss and you're on your way,
I really hoped that you would stay,
But you left and went your own way,
Babe,
-I don't mind take your time I got things to do,
Besides sit around and wait for you,
Oh and I hope you do too,
-You fooled me once with your eyes now honey,
You fooled me twice with your lies and I say,
-Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care,
She lives in her world so unaware,
Does she know that my destiny lies with her,
-Sarah,
Oh Sarah,
are you saving me?
-And it's killing me inside,
Consuming all my time,
You've left me blind,
And when I think I'm right,
You strip away my pride,
You cast it all aside but I say,
-Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care,
She lives in her world so unaware,
Does she know that my destiny lies with her,
-Sarah (Sarah)
Oh Sarah (Sarah) are you saving me?

Hurricane is a song I found a while ago and loved for the beats that Panic! is so good at. The lyrics.. well they aren't my problem :P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaSYjRP4wbo

TJ 2,

How did you become this? I miss the old you that read this and loved me. Yes I treat it like my baby. This is where my feelings go and I kinda care about those. Sorry if I cant deal with everything. I still love you at least

Friendship in Paradise

I think that's what my friends feel like we have. Its just beautiful and happy and functional. NOT. I feel like society's little black duckling because I'm never content with what other people find to be suitable. For instance, the movie my friends are currently watching (Notice that I am not watching this movie as well, that plays a key part here) is a really cool movie that looked pretty interesting.  So when asked if I wanted to watch it I said yes. No further information was given at this point and I didn't expect any. Then today I find out as I am eating with them that they are going tonight. In case you were wondering, I never was told it would be tonight. So naturally once I catch on to tonight's plan I stop talking and keep to myself for the second time today (The first is irrelevant but it also has to do with my disfunctional friendship). I prefer to wait until I can blog it, because I know that everyone around me has given up on listening to me and also given up on reading this. So you, dear, sweet, important readers, are my little ray of light in the literal and figurative cloudy day. I appreciate that a lot. Maybe I'm acting crazy, like they usually say I am, and seeing things that aren't there. Regardless, thanks for listening.

Sore :(

Running is supposed to make you more fit, so far I think it's just ripping me to pieces. But oh well. I enjoy it, as well as typing things up for you guys :) Anyway, I am still struggling with my sign language battle. And yes, it is a battle. I am doing my best to learn sign language to the extent that I will be able to use it fluently with a deaf person. We'll see how that works for me :P I'm having a pretty good day today so far this morning. Nothing terrible yet other than a nasty leg cramp. Thanks for checking up on me :)

Spring!

It really amazes me how yesterday was the first day of spring and everything already looks different! Four days ago I was working in my garden and not much had come up. Just a little sprout here and there. Yesterday though, everything went VROOM! I had halfway grown lily stalks! My cilantro sprigs were now forming little cilantro leaves. I had birds sitting in my rosebush and tweeting at me! I am definitely liking this season change. I'm definitely going to take advantage of the beautiful weather sometime soon! I hope you guys love it too :)

I Hate Myself For Losing You -Kelly Clarkson

This is about my mood today. Only gets better with time right?
I woke up today Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame For the state I'm in today
And now dying Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
-I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not here?
-You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me Inside, and
Now I dread each day Knowing that I can't be saved From the loneliness Of living without you
And, oh I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
-I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
-I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no
-I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you