I Forgive You -Every Avenue

Oh I just love a good sassy song. Please forgive the language. I usually try not to put any up on here but this song is too good to pass up.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSoiTw-Cgnw
I can halfway feel this song. I thought it was me that was insane, now I don't. Its nice that she doesnt lie anymore. I did like her a little better then, but I'd rather have the truth. I'm not away from her though. Im just a little more aware now. Don't you just love the drama of friendship! Mmm it just makes my day :P

Cheater Cheater Best Friend Eater -NeverShoutNever

I was listening to this song when I was kindly informed that whatever I was listening to was stupid. So here I am putting it up for judgement. Lets see if people who listen can appreciate it :Phttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tJWYnoPDZI
"Oh I know all about your type. You're the type of girl who texts all day and talks all night."
If I were him I'd be careful around that type of girl. They're dangerous :P I would know. My best friend is one.

I'm My Own Little Disaster :)

Here I am on this pretty almost-afternoon eating frozen corn and wishing I was outside. "Eating frozen corn?" you ask. Yes, I am one of those weird people who instead of popcorn would rather have frozen corn. Instead of a popsicle, frozen peas. I don't know why. I have always had this intense love for fruits and vegetables and they're all that much better when cold (Except for some fruits. Some just don't taste right icy. Of course I must be particular :P). I also love tea. Not the usual kind that people like around here, but just straight up herbal tea. My favorite is Peppermint and Spearmint blended :) I'm just a little weird I guess. I'm full of quirky little anomalies that make me... Me! But I really would rather continue happily munching on my frozen corn rather than succomb to the ordinary :P But I hope everybody has a cool day whether it be in the mainstream or just a little outside of the box. And if you've never tried frozen corn, DO IT! :P

About a Girl - The Academy Is...

I like this guy :) His band is pretty cool and I like his attitude. Its a good song :) Hope you guys like it.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3M6ZvNmwGxs&feature=relmfu

Send My Love... -Cobra Starsip

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84saYemcJQY&feature=g-vrec&context=G2e33bccRVAAAAAAAAAAI love this video and song :) It's pretty cool and that's all there is to it. I love Cobra Starship. They know what's up. So yeah. I guess whether you like it or not, depends on if you know what's up or not :P
"Let it go. There's no way you change me now."

Pardon Me- He Is We

New artist I found this morning. I like the girl's range and the beat isn't placed where you would expect it so it has a fresh feeling to it. Anyway, I like it :P I'm currently sampling some more music of theirs. Take a listen :)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H52f0hAFL0w&feature=b-vrec

And the Design Company is Born

I have finally decided on the name for my earring and scarf business :) I have a show coming up and I'm trying to get ready for it. So far I don't know how well it's going to go. I have high hopes but a realistic mind. I was lucky to find a show this easily and I am so lucky to have a pit crew who is ready to help out :) I hope I can do this guys!

Sarah Smiles; Hurricane Panic! at the Disco

Sarah smiles reminds me of a girl by a different name that sint saving him and never will. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6mqdtLrY64&feature=relatedI was fine just a guy living on my own,
Waiting for the sky to fall
Then you called and changed it all,
Doll,
-Velvet lips and the eyes to pull me in,
We both know you'd already win,
Mm your original sin,
-You fooled me once with your eyes now honey,
You fooled me twice with your lies and I say,
-Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care,
She lives in her world so unaware,
Does she know that my destiny lies with her,
-Sarah (Sarah, Sarah, Sarah)
Oh Sarah (Sarah) are you saving me?
-Waking up to a kiss and you're on your way,
I really hoped that you would stay,
But you left and went your own way,
Babe,
-I don't mind take your time I got things to do,
Besides sit around and wait for you,
Oh and I hope you do too,
-You fooled me once with your eyes now honey,
You fooled me twice with your lies and I say,
-Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care,
She lives in her world so unaware,
Does she know that my destiny lies with her,
-Sarah,
Oh Sarah,
are you saving me?
-And it's killing me inside,
Consuming all my time,
You've left me blind,
And when I think I'm right,
You strip away my pride,
You cast it all aside but I say,
-Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care,
She lives in her world so unaware,
Does she know that my destiny lies with her,
-Sarah (Sarah)
Oh Sarah (Sarah) are you saving me?

Hurricane is a song I found a while ago and loved for the beats that Panic! is so good at. The lyrics.. well they aren't my problem :P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaSYjRP4wbo

TJ 2,

How did you become this? I miss the old you that read this and loved me. Yes I treat it like my baby. This is where my feelings go and I kinda care about those. Sorry if I cant deal with everything. I still love you at least

Friendship in Paradise

I think that's what my friends feel like we have. Its just beautiful and happy and functional. NOT. I feel like society's little black duckling because I'm never content with what other people find to be suitable. For instance, the movie my friends are currently watching (Notice that I am not watching this movie as well, that plays a key part here) is a really cool movie that looked pretty interesting.  So when asked if I wanted to watch it I said yes. No further information was given at this point and I didn't expect any. Then today I find out as I am eating with them that they are going tonight. In case you were wondering, I never was told it would be tonight. So naturally once I catch on to tonight's plan I stop talking and keep to myself for the second time today (The first is irrelevant but it also has to do with my disfunctional friendship). I prefer to wait until I can blog it, because I know that everyone around me has given up on listening to me and also given up on reading this. So you, dear, sweet, important readers, are my little ray of light in the literal and figurative cloudy day. I appreciate that a lot. Maybe I'm acting crazy, like they usually say I am, and seeing things that aren't there. Regardless, thanks for listening.

Sore :(

Running is supposed to make you more fit, so far I think it's just ripping me to pieces. But oh well. I enjoy it, as well as typing things up for you guys :) Anyway, I am still struggling with my sign language battle. And yes, it is a battle. I am doing my best to learn sign language to the extent that I will be able to use it fluently with a deaf person. We'll see how that works for me :P I'm having a pretty good day today so far this morning. Nothing terrible yet other than a nasty leg cramp. Thanks for checking up on me :)

Spring!

It really amazes me how yesterday was the first day of spring and everything already looks different! Four days ago I was working in my garden and not much had come up. Just a little sprout here and there. Yesterday though, everything went VROOM! I had halfway grown lily stalks! My cilantro sprigs were now forming little cilantro leaves. I had birds sitting in my rosebush and tweeting at me! I am definitely liking this season change. I'm definitely going to take advantage of the beautiful weather sometime soon! I hope you guys love it too :)

I Hate Myself For Losing You -Kelly Clarkson

This is about my mood today. Only gets better with time right?
I woke up today Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame For the state I'm in today
And now dying Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
-I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not here?
-You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me Inside, and
Now I dread each day Knowing that I can't be saved From the loneliness Of living without you
And, oh I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
-I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
-I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no
-I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

Ocean Avenue -Yellowcard

Love Yellowcard. Love this song. It made me smile today when I heard it on the radio :)
There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both sixteen and it felt so right
Sleepin' all day, stayin' up all night
Stayin' up all night
-There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both eighteen and it felt so right
Sleepin' all day, stayin' up all night
Stayin' up all night
-If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea yea, yea
-There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight
-If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yeah
-I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were beggin' me not tonight
Not here, not now
-We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretendin' the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow
-If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on meAnd take me away, yea yeah

I'm on a mission!

So my dad told me that he had a palette of wood that he was going to throw away if it couldn't be used. (My mind starts shouting, No don't throw it away!!) But I go to it and an idea strikes. So here I am sawing wood making a raised bed garden. I made a make-shift one before but I'm going for it this time. I'm rerally excited since I love gardening and it will give me more room! I'm determined and I am prepared. Can anything stop me? No!! (Stepping on a nail did momentarily sway me, but I remain strong :P)

TJ,

First of all, Tigerlily sends her regards (by pulling a Miss Mae on me may I add). Sweetie you mean so much to me. I'm posting this on the hope that you'll find it on your own. You might not though. But you can't be scared anymore. When you're scared I know you're thinking of doing something drastic, so I think of something more drastic to stop you. It's a vicious cycle that we don't need to go through anymore. I'll do anything to weaken the blow to you next time the worst comes. But I need you to know that you'll be okay. I'm not going to let any of hit you harder than I can manage to block. If I can weaken the blow I'll do all I can. Because you are my sunshine :) My Only Sunshine

Good fear?

Maybe being scared isn't the worst thing ever. Maybe something good will come out of our fear. All I really know is that. He'll be okay. No matter what I have to do I'm going to make sure that he's okay. He says I'm the best thing to ever happen to him, but I know that can all change. Letting him get scared was my first mistake. I don't want to know what the second is. The best thing this week was standing with a cup full of ice cream watching him smile and forget the rest. He is the best thing for me and watching him always shows me that. I'm ready to continue in our journey. And now I'm just listening for the next step.

Puzzle pieces

Finding myself bored today, I started doing a random dinosaur puzzle I found.  Like any fairly imaginative kid that does a puzzle, I always stare at the pieces imagining what they could be before I try fitting them anywhere. I start pondering to myself if this dinosaur knew that he was rather chubby and deformed, because as the puzzle came together he began to look worse and worse. And then I pondered if we all saw little things like that about ourselves. If you haven't realized the puzzle itself wasn't very intriguing :P I personally see all of the less than perfect things about myself and make them more than they might need to be. But this dinosaur, he was oblivious. Or at least I believe so, he couldn't look so self assured knowing his physical appearance. So since he was in such physical shape the puzzle was a little, well, puzzling. Sometimes I just kinda looked at a piece and thought how does this fit in?! Today that question got implanted into my actual life. You should be thinking 'Oh no this can't be good' because it isn't. Somehow my phone jumping into sewage water that smelled quite similar to dog business doesn't exactly fit into my puzzle in my mind :P Maybe I'm wrong. Today has been a crap day :P Almost literally

Numbers!

So, tomorrow is Pi Day and this is my one hundredth post :) Thought I'd mention that numbers are important! (Even though you can't just listen to them :P) So count something today and tomorrow. Like how many times your silly boyfriend says you look cute. You know who you are :) Hope you guys have an awesome day today. No matter what I hope there's always someone there with you listening

Scary Places and Scarier times

I just finished reading a book series that has what isn't really considered a happy ending if you take into consideration everything that happened to get there. The thing is though, no one really cared. They just knew that maybe they would be okay now, or at least more okay than they were. That kind of has a sad ring to it in my ears because things shouldn't have to be like that. It shouldn't be that we're pacified by the things that are better than our past, but I suppose that is the best way to be in this scary place. I hope you guys know that you make my piece of this world a little bit more bearable though :) Thanks!

The Way I Am -Ingrid Michaelson

Lyrics are weird but I like the songhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=keyJ9lvQc7Y

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
-Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
-If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
-Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
-I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.
-Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

A Thousand Years -Christina Perry

This song got jammed in my head the other day. Here is my sad attempt to get it out :Phttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIdjEzZGdVI

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
-One step closer
-[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
-Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
-One step closer
-[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
-And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
-One step closer
One step closer
-[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
-And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Slow Fade -Casting Crowns

Went to this artist's concert the other day :) Quite good. I've had a slow fade of a life. I've been slipping down a little further each time I see their faces. I don't want to anymore"People never crumble in a day, it's a slow fade"
Lyrics:
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
-It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
-Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
-It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
-The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
-It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
-Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

Crochet day

I'm having a crafty kind of day. So I dig out my big ball of yarn and pick up my crochet needle. I'm working on a blanket and practicing my stitches. And of course, I cut my fingernails the other day so they are practically useless for moving the stitches :P I'm excited to get it done though :) Hope everybody has a good day!

Cleaning Marathoner!

I honestly feel like I just ran a cleaning marathon! From about 8 this morning to 5:30 this evening I have been cleaning. Given a few mental breakdowns here and there and a snack break that's about 9 hours of cleaning! Oh goodness! But thankfully, I am now done. If I do say so myself the house looks pretty nice. My back is hurting, but I'm totally looking forward to all my friends coming this weekend and some pizza :) I could totally use a massage right now and maybe a competitor for the next cleaning marathon :P Who is up for the challenge???

Nothing better

Nothing better than a hot bowl of spagettios in the morning, or at least that's what my cat thinks as she tries to take it away from me. She gets so close to a side with her little tongue sticking out then she just can't get it because I scoot it a little bit further away. I love her and all it's just that I prefer her kitty tongue stay in her kitty mouth and out of my breakfast :P
Really excited for tonight too. There's actually nothing better than getting to go to a concert with someone you care about :) I'll let you guys know how that goes later.

Forever Together

I hope as the time slips away,
quick as the sun setting at the end of each day,
you can smile as you think of me again.
I hope you could say
'I honestly love her'
as you end your day.
Maybe the memories of me would give strength to fight it,
to push back on the hands of time,
to keep me in sight.
Because if I'm not with you at the end of this night,
I'll try to come save you by the new morning light.
Hold you close and we'll push time's hands together.
Keep you safe with me, always and forever.
Never finding anything we couldn't handle.
Drawing each other in, like a moth and a candle.
Your golden glory shimmering on,
never fading.
My silver glow,
unreliable as it comes and goes.
But together I would know,
as I always do,
that as long as I'm with you I'm safe,
no danger lurking.
I would stay until I could stay no more,
and even then I would linger by your door.
As I would leave,
with despair sure to follow,
I would smile and forget the pesky hands of time.
Have them put me back to where I felt most sublime.
I'd stay wrapped up in your arms until the end of all time.

There's Always A Brand New Day

Dear ever present readers,I have a renewed spirit tonight. I have been shown that not all hope is gone. I have a power within me that was previously unknown. Today was a very nice day, cold weather and all. I wish that everyday could be as sweet and reassuring as today.
This isn't really a "different" post. It's more of a good song tie-in dawning on me while my scientific and creative brains rambles away. The title brought it to mind. Who Knows? is a great song by Avril Lavigne that I like a significant amount. take a listen if you'd like to know why ;)
"I think there's something more, life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day"

3OH!3 Day!

By the way guys, Happy 3Oh!3 day! It's March 3rd (3/03/12) which for all of the 3Oh!3 fans out there means they can buy some pretty cool 3Oh!3 stuff that they may have not been able to get previously and promote the band. I figured since 3Oh!3 is one of my personal favorite bands I could mention them to you guys again :) If you're feeling like listening a little more check them out on youtube. The first 3Oh!3 song I ever heard was Don't Trust Me. It was the favorite song of my group of friends for a while. I may even still have it memorized ;) Thanks for reading guys!

City On The Hill - Casting Crowns

This song means something to me because it basically says we need each other no matter how different we are. I like it a lot. Listen to it closely so that you can hear the meaning and not just the words.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XJ5R08xDC6c
Did you hear of the city on the hill?
Said one old man to the other
It once shined bright, and it would be shining still
But they all started turning on each other
-You see the poets thought the dancers were shallow
And the soldiers thought the poets were weak
And the elders saw the young ones as foolish
And the rich man never heard the poor man speak
-But one by one, they ran away
With their made up minds to leave it all behind
And the light began to fade
In the City on the Hill, the City on the Hill
-Each one thought that they knew better
But they were different by design
Instead of standing strong together
They let their differences divide
-And one by one, they ran away
With their made up minds to leave it all behind
And the light began to fade
In the City on the Hill, the City on the Hill
-And the world is searching still
-But it was the rhythm of the dancers that gave the poets life
It was the spirit of the poets that gave the soldiers strength to fight
It was fire of the young ones, It was the wisdom of the old
It was the story of the poor man that needed to be told
-It is the rhythm of the dancers that gives the poets life
It is the spirit of the poets that gives the soldiers strength to fight
It is fire of the young ones, It is the wisdom of the old
It is the story of the poor man that's needing to be told
-But one by one will we run away
With our made up minds to leave it all behind
As the light begins to fade in the City on the Hill
-One by one will we run away
With our made up minds to leave it all behind
As the light begins to fade in the City on the Hill
The city on the hill
-(Come home)
And the Father's calling still
(Come home)
To the city on the hill
(Come home)

Wasted -Carrie Underwood

Carrie Underwood has a beautiful rich voice and a lovely range. Enjoy :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3znrBRa8PQ
-Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it
-For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it
-I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
-Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.
-Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
-Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
-She kept drivin' along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while
-Hey, yeah,
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
-Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

The Wedding -Casting Crowns

Okay guys, this is open minded music. You can digest it how you like and I hope you guys won't hate it just for the background. Favorite quotes:
"And she knows that she's undeserving
She bears the shame of history
With this worn and weary maiden
Is not the bride that he sees
And she wears white, head to toe
But only he could make it so
When someone dries your tears
When someone wins your heart
And says your beautiful
When you don't know you are
And all you've longed to see
Is written on his face
When love has come and finally set you free
On that wedding day"
Thank you for making me feel beautiful, both of you :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2q4mxl1OXM