Ocean Avenue -Yellowcard

Love Yellowcard. Love this song. It made me smile today when I heard it on the radio :)
There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both sixteen and it felt so right
Sleepin' all day, stayin' up all night
Stayin' up all night
-There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both eighteen and it felt so right
Sleepin' all day, stayin' up all night
Stayin' up all night
-If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea yea, yea
-There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight
-If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yeah
-I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were beggin' me not tonight
Not here, not now
-We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretendin' the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow
-If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on meAnd take me away, yea yeah

I'm on a mission!

So my dad told me that he had a palette of wood that he was going to throw away if it couldn't be used. (My mind starts shouting, No don't throw it away!!) But I go to it and an idea strikes. So here I am sawing wood making a raised bed garden. I made a make-shift one before but I'm going for it this time. I'm rerally excited since I love gardening and it will give me more room! I'm determined and I am prepared. Can anything stop me? No!! (Stepping on a nail did momentarily sway me, but I remain strong :P)

TJ,

First of all, Tigerlily sends her regards (by pulling a Miss Mae on me may I add). Sweetie you mean so much to me. I'm posting this on the hope that you'll find it on your own. You might not though. But you can't be scared anymore. When you're scared I know you're thinking of doing something drastic, so I think of something more drastic to stop you. It's a vicious cycle that we don't need to go through anymore. I'll do anything to weaken the blow to you next time the worst comes. But I need you to know that you'll be okay. I'm not going to let any of hit you harder than I can manage to block. If I can weaken the blow I'll do all I can. Because you are my sunshine :) My Only Sunshine

Good fear?

Maybe being scared isn't the worst thing ever. Maybe something good will come out of our fear. All I really know is that. He'll be okay. No matter what I have to do I'm going to make sure that he's okay. He says I'm the best thing to ever happen to him, but I know that can all change. Letting him get scared was my first mistake. I don't want to know what the second is. The best thing this week was standing with a cup full of ice cream watching him smile and forget the rest. He is the best thing for me and watching him always shows me that. I'm ready to continue in our journey. And now I'm just listening for the next step.

Puzzle pieces

Finding myself bored today, I started doing a random dinosaur puzzle I found.  Like any fairly imaginative kid that does a puzzle, I always stare at the pieces imagining what they could be before I try fitting them anywhere. I start pondering to myself if this dinosaur knew that he was rather chubby and deformed, because as the puzzle came together he began to look worse and worse. And then I pondered if we all saw little things like that about ourselves. If you haven't realized the puzzle itself wasn't very intriguing :P I personally see all of the less than perfect things about myself and make them more than they might need to be. But this dinosaur, he was oblivious. Or at least I believe so, he couldn't look so self assured knowing his physical appearance. So since he was in such physical shape the puzzle was a little, well, puzzling. Sometimes I just kinda looked at a piece and thought how does this fit in?! Today that question got implanted into my actual life. You should be thinking 'Oh no this can't be good' because it isn't. Somehow my phone jumping into sewage water that smelled quite similar to dog business doesn't exactly fit into my puzzle in my mind :P Maybe I'm wrong. Today has been a crap day :P Almost literally

Numbers!

So, tomorrow is Pi Day and this is my one hundredth post :) Thought I'd mention that numbers are important! (Even though you can't just listen to them :P) So count something today and tomorrow. Like how many times your silly boyfriend says you look cute. You know who you are :) Hope you guys have an awesome day today. No matter what I hope there's always someone there with you listening

Scary Places and Scarier times

I just finished reading a book series that has what isn't really considered a happy ending if you take into consideration everything that happened to get there. The thing is though, no one really cared. They just knew that maybe they would be okay now, or at least more okay than they were. That kind of has a sad ring to it in my ears because things shouldn't have to be like that. It shouldn't be that we're pacified by the things that are better than our past, but I suppose that is the best way to be in this scary place. I hope you guys know that you make my piece of this world a little bit more bearable though :) Thanks!